Checking in on day 75 gf ....... the origin of my recovery was this fourm and glad i found it.
Sam checking in for the week gamble free!
I chose 'Origin' as the word of the week mainly because I was reading the Dan Brown novel titled Origin. This got me thinking about the origin of my gambling addiction. It's difficult to pin point when I crossed the line of compulsive behaviour though.
I remember at a very early age going into the bookies with my Granda, a smoke filled room and the small red pens. Middle-age men walking about staring intently at the teletext covered screens. This was a rare occasion and doubt it played a major part in my addiction but it's worth noting.
Later when I was around 8 my Dad started working in an amusement arcade. My brothers and I spent a lot of time there when Dad was working as it had this new thing called Sky TV and we could play all the pool we wanted for free. The place was also filled with machines of course and looking back I loved it, all the flashing lights and sounds etc. I remember 'borrowing' 20p from the refreshments till to play a machine when Dad was at the bathroom, I never returned the 20p. I suppose if there was a true origin of my gambling addiction it was here. Over the years it snow balled and I ended up working part-time in said arcade.
Being exposed to such things at an early age likely played a part in my future choices but I don't blame any one person or thing other than myself. Taking responsibility for my past actions as well as future ones has been key in my recovery. Previously I was very good at blaming everything under the sun except myself for the negative things. Now I look within first and see what I have done, what I could do better etc before looking at anyone else.
All the best
Blowing my gambling secret wide open was the origin of me beginning to understand my addiction (and myself generally) and why gambling became the easy cover of deeper issues.
Checking in bet-free the origin of my new found happiness and wellbeing is stopping the gambling madness 126 days ago
268 GF DAYS ! Checking in 🙂
I've hardly posted on the forums in the last two weeks, except this thread. My life has become very chaotic. I've a court case against a company I used to work for which has been going on for nearly two years. Cant really discuss it on a public forum though. I have my ongoing tax issues and my start time at work is back to midnight as from tonight, it did get shifted to 0200 in November. Pleased its moved back though. Dont know if you're all aware of the fact that the numbers on a roulette wheel add up to 666. Its not something I've worked out, just something I once read although I don't know the origin.
Time for this weeks update guys. Just the 9 check-ins this week! Only milestone we have is sjwsjw ploughing through the 150 day mark! Well done to one and all. If I have left anyone out or made any mistakes please let me know. Gamble free days are correct as of today:
chartom3 - 79
Ineffable - 58
SEL87 - 128
sjwsjw - 153
geordie - 394
Sars27 - 269
RST.Ex-CG - 29
Neveragain121016 - 695
Sam Crow - 637
Check-in is open again and the word of the week is 'Responsibility'
All the best guys and have a great week!
Checking in.
Taking responsibility is key in recovery, you have to except your failings and find ways to fix them, don't blame others, take responsibility and change your life. We can all do this.
Thanks for the update Sam.
Checking in 30 days down feeling great but it is my responsibility to keep this up. I am currenlty really motivated but I know from the past that over time I drop off here and problems begin so this time will be different.
Checking in on day 82 gamble free ...... i take responsibitily for myt actions and hope to learn from my past mistakes.
Checking in and looking forward to Easter and some warm weather
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Taking responsibility is the key to changing anything in your life. Stopping gambling can be the biggest change i make that affects every part of my life if i choose to keep making the right choice. I didn't want or ask for this but i CAN change it. Checking in for the week.
Checking in safely,responsibility for the future is staying Gamble free and committing to a better life.
Hi, I've only just set out here, but can I check in too, please ? I need as many distractions and postitve things as possible to keep me on the right track
275 GF DAYS ! Checking in Sam 🙂 have a great week my ninjas 😉
Sars
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