Morning
Well ive established I lost control. After wasting so much money im at rockbottom. Ive destroyed my family and used money thats not mone just to fund this addition. Im trying to make the pain go away but it won't, the hurt ive put on my family is too much.
The problem really scares me and the fact I found it ok to use money thats not mine its as if im not me when I gamble. Ive spent the last 24 hours with tears coming down my face with the pain and destruction ive caused and the guilt of what I have done. Ive removed my pc, the main place I gambled and ive packed it away. Im scared that I won't be able to summon the willpower to fight this, I want to for my family but ive gambled for too long. I need advice on what works, im seeking councilling on Wednesday to talk it through. Im at my wits end, im willing to try GA, rehab or even hypnosis just to sort myself out. Please help me with some advice for my disgusting problem.
Hi there
I'm literally on day one so I think there are people more 'qualified' to give you advice but I just wanted to say that you're doing really great just by reaching out to this forum. It's better than doing nothing and it shows a great willingness to change.
Out of interest, do you tend to gamble when you're feeling a particular way? Maybe you could come on here and discuss it when you're not feeling too great?
I'm certainly going to try and do that.
Also, remember we cannot change the past but you can make steps, even if they are baby steps to change the future
Its also great you seeked help.
My main issues are when I get stressed I tend to turn to gambling. Ive spoken to alot of people today and the general idea is that you keep yourself busy and keep your mind occupied.
Im willing to give it all ive got to beat this addiction, Ive handed over my cards and all money goes into an untouchable account.
A slight bit of advice (though I can hardly talk) being open with your family and close relatives is the best thing you can do. I have used money that isn't mine and facing the music and dealing with what I have done is starting to put me on the right track.
Best of luck yourself
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