Hi all,
II have been a CG for over 2 years now, online slots being the weakness.
I have racked up 32k in debt to both companies and friends and family.
My life seems to be a cycle of gamble, lose to the point of making myself sick, convince myself I'm going to be ok, start to feel better, tell myself 20 won't hurt, and then it starts again.
This month is the lowest I've been. Have left myself with no money, not even enough for food.
Am sick of using the calculator on my phone to work out how much I have to live on, sick of telling lies, sick of worrying that I've ruined my future.
I've been having counseling which is good, but obviously not enough. I know why I started gambling, it was a way out of a health situation I didn't know how to deal with and a backlog off childhood issues I didn't even know had effected me. But that's no excuse. I'm a smart person, so why can't I figure out how to stop this?
Advice, please...
Hi Katniss,
You sound a lot like myself. I too am new here and have been gambling on and off for 7 years. I too, had an array of childhood issues and a fair few during adult life too. I know why i gamble and know what my triggers are and yet fail to understand why i continue to ruin my life.
i quit in 2012 after my husband gave me an ultimatum and didn't put a single bet on for 18 months but fell off the wagon again in June this year.
If you want to chat then feel free. I wish you the best of luck on your recovery journey.
Hi Katniss - Hope you are still resolved to quit this horrible addiction for good. You are not alone - slots are the curse of so many of us (and I would say mainly women from what I have read on here). Compulsive gambling is no respecter of gender, age or education - like you, I consider myself a smart person, but slots really took hold of me until I realised that I was ruining my life with those stupid reels.
Have you self-exluded from all your sites and also installed blocking software? K9 is a good one as it's free. You'll find these barriers an enormous help in getting you on the road to recovery. Keep reading the stories on this site for encouragement and inspiration - you can do this!
Best wishes
Joanna
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