Hi, I posted previously about losing 8k on my boyfriends credit card and it has turned our lives upside down understandably. Today is thursday. Normally a Tuesday and Thursday are my 'gambling' days, its my day off from work and my 4 year old son is at school on tuesday and with his grandparents on a thursday. He has just been picked up and the urge to log on and try win some money back to stop my boyfriend being so mad is overwhelming.
All I want to do is put £30 on and get a bonus round on a good slot and withdraw £500. This isnt goin to happen and I am not going to do it i just needed to write this down to realise how stupid it sounds to everybody else. I would put £30 on and lose it.. I will do it on another 2 websites then go back upping my deposits to £50 then £100 until th £530 left on the crediti card is gone. This is horrible.
I must stress I havnt done it, I dont want to do it, but the feeling in the pit of my stomach and the other half of my mind, the compulsive side is telling me too. So instead im going to come on here say my piece and read though loss stories to remind me im going to lose and i dont need to do it. It wont fix things it will make things a million times worse.
I just impulsively pick up the laptop and log on. NOT today. today is my day and I CAN control this for the sake of everyone around me. I am strong.
Just phoned the gamcare helpline for th first time as was feeling so overwhelmed. They were so helpful 🙂
. You've made a couple of great choices today. Coming on here first then contacting Gamcare.
Do you really think your BF would be over the moon if you turned up later and said I've won 1k today here you go. I'd imagine he would be annoyed that you have been gambling again like you said you gambles 8k away I'm sure you would off had a few decent wins in that amount did you stop and collect? No you carries on because you can't stop
You've made the right choice in not betting today speak to your BF later and tell how you felt and build the block up that have been suggested to you
KTF
Hi all have just spoken with my bf and he was fab, I told him how is felt this morning and how iv stopped and kept myself busy and he is proud of me. Much better feeling than telling him iv won money playing with his money!
Have also just had my telephone assessment with the lady from gamcare and have now booked in my counselling sessions so things are looking good today.
Lots of cleaning to do round the house which I will be getting on with, it's been on the back burner these last few months because of my addiction. Not today though 🙂
Just keep looking forward not back. That's what I'm going to do!!
X
Hi Bex and well done on making some good choices today , those feelings are just cravings Hun but the longer you go the easier they will get , trust me it does get better , we were all where you are once and know those feelings well , keeping busy will help keep your mind occupied , my house never looked so clean during the first couple of months LOL ! , the counciling sessions will soon kick in and help you further , keep posting and keep talking !
Best wishes ......................Alan
Thanks Alan still going strong! 🙂 today is the hardest day yet so I feel I'm doing well
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