Flushing my life away due to gambling

Hi Robert 

I totally get what you are saying as I felt all of this for along time. 

I have found it easier since closing all my accounts down online so I have no way of gambling other than walking or driving to a bookies. 

Have you spoke to any family members about your addiction ? I confided in my wife over 6mth ago about how much I had lost , but only several weeks ago relapsed. I then chose to broaden my help and confided in my parents and a friend ( who helped me to bet without knowing what he was doing) to which he stopped as he had a feeling something wasn’t right. 

I must say having these people now know makes me feel a lot better and I also know I have someone to reach out to when I’m having a bad day or become tempted. 

Stay positive I’m now 6 days GF and feel better it already. 

Lee 

I feel exactly the same. 
last year I had a really big win. That was it I had to try and recreate that so tried a variety of games. I would win a bit but you know the story. Still the feeling of when you get that win never leaves your brain so that urge to just have one go…just half hour, if I lose this I will stop honest. Always been able to pay bills but it’s been really tight . I’ve had to say no to certain things and watch every penny when I could have been doing something useful with the money or even something frivolous but tangible! 
So count me in I’m starting my recovery with you and will be here if you need any support

anna 

Hey all thanks for the nice messages, your support really means a lot and its really nice that we can all share our experiences with others who know what its like.

Yesterday was feeling really low most of the day not because of recent loses because I have still have money for food, but low because of how I have really how much and badly gambling has changed me. For first time in 10 ish years I realised that the person I was is still apart of me , the fun loving , not anxious, adventurous randy lad I was before all the gambling. So for the first time in years I put on a back pack grabbed some water and got lost in nature for the afternoon and it was AMAZING, so today I woke up buzzing because of how much fun it was to be hiking again, so I put on my back pack again and went to another nature reserve today.

Very very happy today.

(Also no urges to gamble)