GA

Hi I went to my 1st meeting yesterday and I ain’t gonna lie it was the scariest thing I’ve ever had to do but I’m so glad I went. The people there were so nice they made me feel comfortable but I was still really nervous. I got there and started to walk away cus I thought I couldn’t do it but I did and I’m glad I did. So just try it honestly u will be fine. 

Hey, I attend a GA meeting.

It will take some effort and determination to walk through that door but honestly it will be one of the best things you will ever do. You will never be judged and it’s all confidential. 

Get there early and some one will greet you, make sure your comfortable, talk you though how it works and you don’t have to talk at the first meeting. Remember they were in your position one day and you will benefit so much from attending. 

I hope it goes welL

Hi

By going to the recovery program was the best thing I could have done in my life.

The person I feared the most was myself.

Then as I got the second meeting and he third meeting my fears reduced and my trust grew.

Sadly the reason I went to my first meeting was not for myself.

Over time I would identify myself in other people.

When I heard people laughing in recovery I thought that they were compulsive gamblers they were not in the pain that I was in.

Over time I would find out that some people had suffered things I had not experienced yet they had healed from their pains.

In the meeting I was told that pride is an unhealthy feeling.

That is not true for me, first of all I did not know what pride even felt like.

Yet over time by taking my recovery seriously I would start to feel proud of myself which was a weird feeling for me.

The abstaining helps us find out what our emotional triggers are and how to deal with people lief and situations in a much healthier way.

Yes I most certainly met people I knew yet they were there for the very same thing I was after.

I did not value myself other people or value money on walking in to the recovery program.

By abstaining from Gambling and attending the recovery program I was going to start to value myself and other people.

No more some thing for nothing, no more hiding in fear, no more panic and escape facing myself.

Just for today I will not gamble is a boundary that I set up for myself.

My emotional triggers were my pains I could not heal, fears I could not or would not face, my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations, my feelings of loneliness due to my fears of emotional intimacy, and my feelings of boredom because as I got more and more int o escaping I became less and less productive in every avenue of my life.

How much do I value myself today, how much time and effort am I willing to put in to my recovery and my life just for today.

Love and peace to every one 

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham