Hey guys, I'm not sure if anyone will reply, but a month ago I relapsed... Very f*****G stupid of me. I managed to save myself to £1,500 after clearing over half of my debts and only having £3,000 left to pay and now after a month I have lost £3,000 and I'm back in the s**t.
I haven't paid my rent arrears for 3 weeks running which I agreed to do weekly and I've got my debts back up to £4,000 in that short amount of time and missed numerous payments for loans and bills etc.
I swear this addiction is not worth it. You start again and it will turn your life upside down before you know it. From today I'm taking my life back again. I'm cursed with this horrible addiction, but I'm having another attempt at destroying it forever. I had big plans and everything was working out for me perfectly, enough savings to start my driving which I planned and to live comfortably while picking up £500+ a week and now I've landed myself straight back in the s**t! I was saving for a car and now them plans are pushed back.
I can't afford to do this again, I won't gamble again for the rest of the year and the year after. I can't afford to mess up my life again just as things were getting on track for the first time in years! I've got goals and plan must achieve this year, maybe this relapse is teaching me a valuable lesson again as to why I quit in the first place.
I won't give up. I'm sticking to my word, I stopped for 4 months which means I can easily stop for 8 months to close out the year and then in 2024 never even touch a gambling site.
It's been a while since I've been on here and maybe that's what made me complacent too, but I'll make sure I come on here daily now.
@manonamission this addiction so deadly it only needs to get you once you need to make a plan ask yourself why you gave into your urgues when you was doing so well, you made a mistake has long as u benefit from it thats all that matters, forget about this last loss think of it like a game it may take u 100 attempts but if you give it 100% you will eventually beat it as long as you put the work in, find other things to occupy your time even if you won all your money and made a profit could u stop? I can assure you as a gambling addict u wont be able to stop take each day as it comes eventually u will get their
Yes, I'm so proud of myself right now, it's been nearly 2 months gamble free and the time has flew by, I never thought I'd see the day. I literally have no urges to gamble now.
Due to me having low funds still and scraping by due to debts I'll have the odd voice every couple weeks trying to convince me to try and win some money by gambling to make it easier for myself, but I just tell the voice "shutup, this is the reason I'm in this situation" and the voice will be gone. It's like you have to react instantly by telling it NO! Firmly.
But yes I've cleared around 20% of the debts and hopefully the debts will be cleared by September/October. It's still a way to go, but the time flies and before I know it I'll be able to start saving some real money to start driving and then look for a new job which pays more and start a business by the end of the year. My life is finally fitting together, I've been meditating too and hitting gym hard.
I've also started the 1p Challenge and the weekly saving challenge where you save £1 on week 1, £2 on week 2 and £3 on week 3 and so on. Both combined save £2000 in a year, which is very nice way to get some savings put to the side while also paying a large amount of debts as it starts of small and the savings payments get bigger as you start the clear the debts which means you have more money to put to the side.
I hope for you to get your debts cleared mate. We are in this together and this is literally the longest I haven't gambled for in 7 years. Anything is possible!
Good luck with clearing them debts and sorting yourself out. you was doing so well mate each time you have an urgh come back on here and remind yourself as you didnt gamble you was making progress these urges will draw u back in they play with your mind such as you only have x amount of money left just try x amount which never really happens and u dig a hole bigger forget about your relapse and use it as a guide to why u should never attempt it trust me even if u get all your money back and even extra money their a very huge chance you will dig a bigger hile then u started its happened to me and many other people
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