I've posted on here a few times last year. I was quite a hard impulse gambler mostly on roulette. I'm 20 y/o and live with my parents, so I have that security there. I have managed to not gamble for 7 months. I thought I was cured, until last week. I've spend my last £700 on the roullette out of impulse in the matter of ten minutes, and the worst thing is I have a holiday booked for next month. I dont even want to think about that right now. I was in the bath and it just all happened so fast. The gutting feeling when it lands on red and you put it on black. I started shaking and my life felt like it just ended. I decided to put my head under water not knowing what the hell I was doing, I was about 30 seconds in and I managed to hear my mum speaking in the other room, thats when I thought, I can't, I can't do this to my mum who has brought me up for 20 years.
I feel like I've done with betting now, I just needed that big loss to push me over the edge. I don't even want to chase it. I just dont want to look at a casino ever again.
I am just currently sat in my bed, thinking about work for the rest of the week. How i'll be able to get up in the morning, to work hard 6 days a week for 6 pound an hour to regain my money back. How can I be happy at work after wasting £700? Working with customers.. It' going to be tough. I want to sleep to take my mind of things. I am so numb right now. But if I sleep now I for sure wont be able to sleep tonight.
I can competely relate zline. The thought of working hard to just throw it away is horrible. The only way to win is to stop, after a few weeks or months gamble free you will feel much better.
Roulette is my main problem too mostly in the bookies. Like yourself I still stay at home but hoping to move out later this year. If you want to chat drop me a message.
Dmr
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