I'm not here to talk about a gambling addiction. I am here on my knees as a desperately sad human being, just hoping for some contact. Yeah sure I used to have a problem with this gambling thing, but the reason i am here is because of how suicidal i feel. I have locked myself in my room and haven't been out for days, just drinking and drinking. I hate my life. The legacy this gambling ///// has left me. The world is full of love, full of hate. Where do I fit in? I truly believe i am one of these "bad" people. There's no place for me here. How can i keep going day to day, when all i experience is the utter misery and guilt my lifestyle has left me. I have LITERALLY no friends. No social life. Eugh I can't even keep talking. Stream of consciousness from a desperately sad soul.
Hi Jimmy,
I don't often post on this site (For my own reasons) although I am a daily visitor.
I don't really understand your post in as much as you say you do not want to talk about a gambling problem although I get the impression that gambling may have played a part in your current sadness?
I do however understand a little about how you are feeling and wanted to reach out to you and give you a hug. (((Jimmy)))
I wanted to let you know that there are people here, on this site, ready and willing to be there for you.
(I read their posts and feel their unconditional love and support for users of this site everyday. )
Perhaps you could try and get some sleep now tonight in the knowledge that you can visit this site again tomorrow. Perhaps then you might feel able to tell us a little more about yourself and the way you are feeling so that we might be able to offer some words of advice.
Please don't feel sad Jimmy.
On a positive note you are only 21, so very young. You have your whole life in front of you. So much time at your advantage to change the things that need changing, the things that make you feel this way.
Your words lead me to believe that you are an intelligent and sensitive young man. (Not a bad person, perhaps just a little lost at the moment. ) One that if he puts his mind to it could achieve many goals in life.
Tomorrow is a new day, a new start that brings with it new opportunities.
Make it count Jimmy, start to make the changes in your life that you need to make you happy.
Thinking of you tonight.
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Hi jimmyc. How are you feeling today? I know it's difficult but if you'd like to talk there is always someone who wants to listen and the good people of Gamcare are here to help 🙂
Hi jimmyc. 1 positive to look at is your young. Really young. In your first year as a non tennager so you have plenty of years to bulid on and be a better person. Gambling doesnt make you a bad person. Its an addiction fueled by easy money and the rush of placing bets. It doesnt make you a bad person. Drinking will just make you worse. Go outside and enjoy the outdoors and enjoy the simple things in life like going for a walk or taking a girl out on a date or even play some sport. Comittjng suicicde would do nothing you have been giving a gift of life a gift that is worth more than gold and definatly more than any big win. Maybe you can see it now or feel theres no way forward but there is just takes time. Your richer than 75 percent of population if you have a roof over your head and a bed to sleep in and clean water. It just takes time away from gambling to see clearly and let the behaviour youve been doing to be forgot and your heart to heal. I won over 100k at 25 and just pumped it all back into the machines. Im nearly 29 and still gambling trying to stop. I dont have any debts but dont have a house or any savings all cause of gambling but then you have to look at it I would have just spent all that money on pointless material things thats nobody really needs just makes people happy. Tell someone in your family about it and get it out in the open and focus on other things in your life and keep busy and remember your 21 dont want to get to 31 and still be gamblimg with no money and in debt. Take care of yourself
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Hi Jimmy, there is so much beauty in the world, what is it that makes you feel like a 'bad' person. I myself used to think that but this site has shown me that we are not bad people just a little bit sidetracked in our life. Yes we may push friends/family away but now is the time for a fresh start. I don't know what your finances are like but I would recommend taking a break somewhere maybe an adventure holiday or working holiday abroad that brings individuals together and can help gain some new friends. I did something like this by working in America at a camp and you realise by stripping everything back and leaving your past behind you can get a real sense of achievement and really find yourself. I myself would go back tomorrow and do it all again. Please keep us up to date on how your feeling as this is a great supportive community.
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