Small Relapse, Harsh Lesson

I had the bulk of my problems about 3 years ago, racking up a huge amount of debt over a short period of time

I recovered though, and didn't have a bet of any kind for over 2 years, took up some new hobbies and was doing ok.

However, towards the back end of last year i had some personal issues and without even knowing it, slipped back into my lazy, hanging around the house getting bored ways...and i started betting again.

At first just a tenner on the football/golf with a few beers.

But in the last 2 or 3 months it's been the online casino again, and up until last night i think i was 500 up since i restarted. Until about 1am last night when i put 50 in, and ended up losing close to a grand chasing losses 🙁

But you know what....i am actually glad it happened, because i know that had it not happened last night it would have eventually, be it today, next week or next year.

I've learned that i can't gamble "just a little" because when i do it always leads to more serious, damaging stuff.

Today i have redownloaded betfilter (i had it on my old laptop but decided i didn't need it when i got my new one) and made a list of all the "healthy" things i need to do to get my life back on track.

Sure i've lost a little bit of money, but i'm hoping the lesson i've learned will be worth so much more than that in the long run.

My debt is still quite big but i am paying it off and still have enough money to live a reasonable life

Maybe i am sugar coating it, but finally realising how stupid i've been letting myself slip over the last 6-9 months and what i need to do to change it feels like a bigger deal than a few hundred quid.