I am day 25 gf but my family dont know about my addiction ive put all the blocks in place and had. Support from the advisers on here and ive had my first phone call for 1-1support but im really struggling with the guilt i am having serious suicidal thoughts to the point of how and when i dont know what to do i know that i should seek help but then my husband and family will find out what ive done im really scared and desperate right now
Hi
Congratulations on being 25 days gambling free and putting all the restrictions in place, keep it up. Seek more help if you are having terrible thoughts, everything can be solved and families can eventually understand and would far more understand a gambling illness than a suicide attempt. Money can be replaced eventually, your life is worth far more .
Be proud of yourself for getting to day 25 and to keeping it up in 2024.
Please talk to someone!!!! It will be the hardest thing you do but also the best thing!
I put off telling my husband for so long, he is a very sensible person, always with money and has worked hard his entire adult life. I took out a massive load of debt in his name (tens of thousands) and he couldn’t have been more supportive. He just felt more sad that I was going through it alone.
Remember it’s an illness, you haven’t intentionally done this.
Please don’t be alone, it’s the most terrible feeling ever. You’re not alone, this is opening to so many people right now.
Take care,
Claire xx
Please talk to someone!!!! It will be the hardest thing you do but also the best thing!
I put off telling my husband for so long, he is a very sensible person, always with money and has worked hard his entire adult life. I took out a massive load of debt in his name (tens of thousands) and he couldn’t have been more supportive. He just felt more sad that I was going through it alone.
Remember it’s an illness, you haven’t intentionally done this.
Please don’t be alone, it’s the most terrible feeling ever. You’re not alone, this is opening to so many people right now.
Take care,
Claire xx
Dear Anxious58,
I'm so sorry to read about what you've been going through. You've done well to engage in so much gambling support already (day 25 is fantastic!) and I hope that by joining our Forum, you will find some solace in our community here too.
Writing about these thoughts cannot have been easy and I appreciate how isolating it can be, feeling that you cannot speak to the people around you. Please do not feel you need to be alone with this. You can speak with us at any time. Our helpline is 24/7 on 0808 8020 133 and the live chats, all of the time, even over Christmas and new year. We hope to hear from you soon.
Wishing you all the best,
Jamie
Forum Admin
Hi, I know the feeling. Talk to your family and keeping getting the support you need. One day at a time it will be less painful.
25 days is a great achievement on the road to recovery!
I never thought I'd be free. I felt that the addiction would be the end of the line but its not. Be proud of 25 days, be proud you want to carry on the journey of being free of the addiction.
If you're in a tough spot you could call Samaritans if you're in the UK. The journey may feel long but you'll feel better the further along you get. I spent 12 years being an addict, I never thought I'd be free and I never thought that I'd make it this far but I have. Im 10 months free of addiction, I don't intend on going back and I don't regret my decision to stop.
Honestly stopping is not the end, its the start of the beginning of freedom.
Hi there. Trust me it’s been 40 years for me and with the help of superb support from countless organisations and real open care from close family my battle goes on
We have all took huge tumbles but we get back up dust ourselves down and come back more determined than ever keep posting with us on here let’s do this together as a team
Best
Thank you everyone for your support i really hope i can beat this i just feel in a bad way at the minute
It passes, the depression hatred of ourselves and guilt does pass. Hang in there, its part of the process of recovery, and it is very hard to get through, BUT you will get through it to the other side and a better life afterwards. The first few days then weeks even months are very difficult trying to make sense of it all, Why, How, If only. But then you realise to give everything into fighting this also needs you to let go, to use all your mental energy into fighting it but not fearing it. What you are feeling right now is your mind saying never again, that pain can not be rushed through, but it can and does subside. What you have written although on the face of it is hard to read, is actually a massive and very positive step forward. Those 25 days will have been among the toughest of your life but you got through it, and you should feel positive about that achievement.
Expect in the coming weeks a realization that you can do this, but also that you will feel happier stronger and finally be able to positively look to the future. You cant turn emotions on or off like a switch, BUT please do start to see your achievements not just your past disappointments.
Suicidal thoughts?, no time for that you have a battle to win and a future to plan.
Good Luck
@lids@19635 thank you i really appreciate that
Any time you want to chat be it the chatroom or on here, please dont hesitate, youve got this , and i for one look forward to reading your battle, there will be lows, but i reckon you will smash this.@lids@19635 thank you i really appreciate that
Thank you so much
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