I look at my life & see bitterness from people who know me and especially myself. its only a matter of time before the demons take me into another place where I can feel no hurt or pain. My family only see a gambler who has lied & my friends only see weakness. I have resigned myself to feeling sick with the urge, I can no longer fight this evil, you took my days and my nights and now I know you will take my life or what's left of it. I am so scared, I sit crying & scream why why? please leave me alone. I have no one to talk to, i'm lonely , very lonely, I talk reason to myself but it never works........... help me
Hi dejcjm
Welcome to the forum, and weldone for posting.
You have taken a very bold step by admitting you have a gambling problem, and a second step of asking for help; There is help.
People who know you now, may also know the real you. Probably the person you were before your gambling, (you refer here as 'demon') became a problem for you. You mention how you feel these people and also you feel about yourself. Maybe what you and others see now is this person with the gambling problem, who may not be the real you. Perhaps people will be able to see the real you again, and you may not feel the way you feel now, once this gambling problem is looked at.
There is help, and you do not have to be alone in this. People on here are very supportive of each other, and you will be helped to get back on your feet if that is what you want.
You can also call us on out Free Telephone Helpline at 0808 8020133 or our Netline at: http://secure.gamcare.org.uk/netline/ and talk confidentialy with one of our advisors. We will help you to look at statergies to put in place to help you with your gambling problem.
We also give free one to one counselling in most areas in the country. You mention asking 'Why Why?' You can ask our advisor for counselling if you want to look at the underlying reasons why you gamble.
You have come to the right place, we are here to help.
Take Care.
Regards
Florence.
Welcome to the forum.
You're in a good starting place to begin picking yourself up. Life can and will get better for you. I know it's hard to see that now.
I've been very depressed through gambling. I sought help from my GP and was on anti depressants for a time to help lift my mood enough to feel I could simply get up out of bed and cope with life.
Perhaps a chat to your doctor could help?
Counselling might help too, and your doctor might be able to refer you to local gamblers anonymous groups or counsellors who specialise in helping gamblers to deal with their issues.
It takes time, but you can do it and have the wonderful life you deserve. Friends and family will see the change in you and respond to that. Their bitterness probably just stems from feeling disappointed in your past behaviour, but you can turn that around and make them proud again 🙂
I wish you well on your journey. Well done for being here and asking for help, that's a big step forwards.
Love Pinky x
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