18 days gamble free

Hi

juat reading your diary! Sounds like were very similar only I told my husband on Sunday. Like u I was gambling from about 18/19..,bits at first then the more money I earned the more I spent. I use to have a great credit rating! No anymore! I won big in April £10k big enough to pay all my debts...thought great won't be doing that again. Then randomly a £20 deposit turned into about £3k in about 5 hours! Didn't matter because I use to be in more debt so I tried chasing it back £3k later and then eventually my debts of £10k were back again. It made me sick. I'm not a bad person...not usually but gambling makes me bad. Lying keeping things a secret,those things made me I'll. not eating not sleeping couldn't concentrate. I was so ill I just thought my husband deserves better than this so I told him Sunday last week. He couldn't believe how depressed I was which made him tealise it was an illness! He has been so supportive! I have literally handed all financial control to him! I'm started counselling on Monday too because even though I'm not thinking about it now I'm not stupid enough to believe I never will. I need to be able to control this. My accounts are all closed my cred cards all snapped. I have been as honest as possible and have given my husband all details for all cards I own so he can monitor my accounts. He could have walked away but he didn't so I owe him more than ever! Like u I am so determined but as an addict I think we need to ensure we can do everything we can to stop ourselves going back there. I feel like now I am thinking straight for the first time in 6 years! We can do this but only if we make sure that we put everything we can in place!

hope everything goes well!

Hiya Kel it's nice to meet you, 1st thing I'm really sorry to hear about your problem don't wish this on anybody, we are so alike its untrue everything you have said it's like I have wrote it myself, I'm so happy that you are going to get the surrport you need, this is a massive step for u what we have both done I really wish u the best and I will be keeping post with you to see you beat this, I just wish I could of been more truthful with my other half but I've had to no tell her all the things but I'm willing to quit now and she doesn't need to know about my past loss even no I do want her to no but I no she will walk, I've been honest to her about all my dept present so hopefully now I can get this gone for good, all the best kel

I use to think my husband would too because when he found out previously he said he would but I think he realised how out of my control it was. He's helped me in every way he can which is what I needed. I need all control to be taken from me in every way possible because I've tried to stop so many times on my own and failed. This time seems different. I'm going out of my way to show him that I can do this. I got in touch with gamcare and they've provided the counselling and it's good times too so I don't have to worry about excuses for work etc. this may be helpful for u I'm not sure as I haven't been myself yet. Referred myself weds too so they were really quick.

i really hope we both can stick to this because I think we'd be much happier ppl!

Hi, happy Sunday, well that it great news I'm happy he understand how bad this is for us and how out of control it makes us, it's hard for people to understand why we do so it's nice to see we both have the right people there, well done on going to couciling something I want to do but I'm finding the confidence to do it very hard defo something I need to talk about with my other side, please let me no how u get on be nice to no a bit about it, take care

Day 4 gamble free, Well this Saterday has been hardest test so far, I usely do a football bet when it's prem league but I said no to it, to do this I have to do no gambleing of any sort, I drove past the bookies on way to gym and on way home I was thinking should I or should I but no just rang my gf and took mind of it, I'm pretty lucky as well I'm not proud what I'm gonna say as I have been in tears about this but I've had to lie to my parents to borrow a £1000 this then gets me out of my overdraft and into the green it's cleared my head of worrying about that so all I have know is my 2 loans which I intend to pay of as much as I can in next month while save what's left for a morgage deposit, I feel still in a daze about it all can't get roulette of my mind just knowing I have over a grand in my account to play with, but I promise it's not going anywhere near a bet, hope u all have a great Sunday

At the moment I have no desire to gamble! In order to ensure you don't gamble today u may need to keep yourself busy. Think about roulette and how unlikely it is that you're going to win anything from it! U need to make sure you don't do it...tell your gf now how you're feeling and she'll keep you busy and hopefully your mind off it.

I am am very lucky to have such a fantastic husband. I need to go to counselling just because I need to know what to do when that desire starts to come back! It will I'm sure of it! I'm just going to a ace to face session. No one else will be there. I'm not sure what to expect really. I'm hoped she's not shocked by who I am. I'm young, female, with a good job, nice car yet here I am! I can do this! X

Well your advice has worked with explaining how I feel and I have been busy most of the day food shoping bit of house cleaning etc, just going to take one step at a time with this as I've felt this way before about quiting and always took over me at some point and back to were I started but I'm confidant to just stay busy like u say and egnore the urges, your going in the right direction and you won't be judged who you are we are all human and mistakes happen to the best of us, I'm really positive you will beat this you sound like u want this, really do wish u best of luck with your one to one and it works for u x

Honestly I have to! At the moment I don't want to gamble but my urges seem more like compulsions. I don't think about them for weeks and then I do and before you know it I'm there for 5 or 6 hours depositing at first £20 and before u know it I've increased it to a grand. Ridiculous! I do want it! I've wanted it for such a long time! I remember cancelling accounts before but leaving one open with a £25 limit thinking that if I did I wouldn't do damage but it's do easy to open another account. This immediately tells me that I obviously didn't want to stop enough but now u do! All the barriers to stop me are there now and if they aren't for you maybe you should make sure they are so it's not as easy! I am taking it one day at a time but can u imagine that feeling...what it's like to be 2 or 3 months without a bet! Spare money in your back pocket to do something em that's actually fun and exciting?? That's what I'm hoping for! Keep going!

Morning kel, everything you write is just how my gambleing is, the way It seems to me is I'm just saving in till I have that blow out that wipes you out, as to the barriers I have put as many as I can in place I have canceled all my accounts online, I'm not self excludeing from bookies.as I've done this so many times b4 and always still been able to bet in them, and my gf has my bank cards so that stops me access to money now, I have our joint bank card but wouldn't dream of gambleing any of our money we have together only my money, hope u have a lovely day x

Day 5 gamble free, nearly a week, well it's been a hard weekend so many times I wanted to gamble but something something in my head is saying no, I try to picture how.i.feel when I walk out of the bookies or of my phone 1000s down and this Is geting me though it, I can't stop thinking of my losses starting to get to.me when I thought I would forget of them, I'm thinking it's due to I won't ever get the chance to win the loss back again so just need to accept that it's all gone and what I earn now is mine and my gfs, hope u all have a great gamble free day

Thanks for your post Pol, this is the toughest time.......trying to radically alter a routine you may have had for months, no years?...and trying not to reflect on money that's been wasted in minutes/hours!?!.

In my case it wasn't helping to reflect on the past...in some ways that seemed selfish like, if I don't think about it it's like it didn't happen..but it did happen and the debts will be there for a long time so I don't get to completely forget it. My focus is on the future, one day at a time. 74 days ago I was an emotional wreck and was nudged in this direction by my little sister.

Today I know I've only just started BUT am still a little in awe that I've strung so many days together. I don't believe it would have been possible without this site and its contributors.

I feel more capable than I've ever done about making the continual decision not to gamble a single penny. It's Suzanne's line but I'm also having it..."I win every time I choose not to gamble".

Couldn't of said it any better myself it defiantly becomes a routine, I'm finding today really hard as it's days like today I would gamble on a Monday after work, it's nice to see you have come along way with the emional side and it's a massive achievement reaching 74 days as I've tried and failed many times, soon we will all look back on this one day and think what the he'll was we thinking to gamble all our money away but all happens for a reason hey, and it's a great saying I will be using it 🙂 take care mate

Day 5 gamble free, been hardest day so far been bit low today probs because it's a Monday at work, I'm most renuable when I feel low so it's been a test for me but I fighted the urges with going to gym instead,just at home now waiting for my gf to come home all best everyone

Good luck on your journey - take it one day at a time. Doesnt matter how long you are gamble free you will still get urges but it does get easier not to give in to them. Confessing really helps and acknowledging you have a problem is a huge step. We are in this together. Keep going 🙂

Morning wants to stop, thank your for your surrport really appreciate it 🙂 we can all do this