Losses
I'm no different to anyone else but it seems that when anyone talks to someone who they meet in recovery the questions tend to be on what and how long. I've never been asked what did I lose.
When I finally entered into recovery, I thought I only lost money. Reflecting nowadays I know what I gambled with
Money, my money, the banks money and other people's money and lost
Time, my time but time that could have been spent with other and lost
Sanity, my own mental health and lost
Health, I have no doubt that I gambled with my physical health and lost
Family, I gambled with my family to potential lose them, at the moment I haven't but time will tell
Friends, I gambled with them, letting them down being late or owing money but most of all leading a second life, I lost most of theseÂ
Myself, I gambled all the good characteristics I possessed and lost
My Job, I gambled with this and lost
My reputation, gambled and lost
My freedom,.gambled and time will tell if I lose this as well
I guess the question is, other than recovery and becoming the best version I can of Stuart, what did I win and apart from money, which of the above could I have ever won ?
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