Evening all,
I have chosen to write my thoughts down here because this has always felt like a safe space over the past 430 successful days of being gamble free.
My life is good. I no longer choose to gamble. I run my own business helping others in football. I am always fully booked and have been for the past 3/4 years straight. I have a loving girlfriend. I have both my parents who love me. I live financially comfortably nowadays.You get the jist.
Despite all of the above which I consider myself grateful for, I just can’t seem to light my spark these past few weeks. I feel like everyday is becoming the same routine. I feel unmotivated to complete simple tasks like tidying a messy room for months now; I even feel unmotivated and lazy to brush my teeth before bed ?.
I am usually a very self-driven and motivated personality. My job insists of inspiring others, and I am fully booked up for a reason. But why am I struggling so badly with myself?
Is it because deep down I am resisting a big urge to gamble for ‘the buzz’? To rebel and change my daily routine?
I accept what I am going through isn’t permanent, it will prove to be temporary…but that doesn’t stop me wanting to find the answers and solutions to get out of this draining feeling.
It’s worth pointing out how proud I feel writing the fact I haven’t gambled in 430 days. Wow. My 500 day milestone is in sight…
Does anyone else feel similar emotions even when things in life appear to be good?
Hi azzabazza totally understand what you are describing. I'm 655 days gamble free of a 30 year addiction & yes at times the gaps left that gambling used to fill can leave you feeling empty but just stay strong drive on through it & search for anything to fill that void in your life. It seriously is the only way forward for us.
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