addicted to Gambling till today

I felt so much better and relieved for writing my last post but I am having so much emotional and I have to speak about it like I felt so much better when I spoke about my gambling addiction and now I am feeling down again like I am on the edge my head it telling me to play with money I haven't even got like 

.if anyone went through the same think what did u do to stop you thought thinking about gambling?

I know nobody is going to read it so i am going to to write down what my thought are I feel like ths is helping me to get though hard time I am going through right now with my gambling addiction

In million years I would never think that I would get addicted to anything but here I am sad and miserable and I keep comparing myself to other people that they have a nice house , nice car nice clothes I could have it all  but instead I went to gamble all my money , I have a good job , good salary but this was just over the top and I had to put a stop to it TODAY I promise myself i will never gamble again because this has destroyed my life and my relationships with my friends and family of course they don't have an idea that i gamble. That's ways I use this website to confess.. I am glad I found this page so i don't have hide files of paper of my confession of addition to gambling. its time for me to get ready for work and I know its going to be hard because I used to do overtime just so I can gamble my money all the hard work I have done its all gone in the bin like my money went in the bin through playing casino games online.

So I am staring my journey today 

Will keep u update in couple of hours probably 

Hello there, 

Youve made the best start if you really want to stop. 

This is a great place, where hopefully you’ll continue to visit and get lots more advice. 

Most of us here are similar in many ways. I too played the online slots. Gambling gets in your head. It messes you up, to the point you become a different person. And it’s not a nice person, just one that would do anything to gamble. 

I have had spells of abstinence, but need the smallest excuse to start again. I’ve also been struggling recently. No one said it was easy! It’s certainly a case of trying to focus on other things. Every 10/20/30 minutes gambling pops into my head - I have to turn the channel!!!

I wish you the best. Let us know how you’re doing/feeling.

Tizzy xxx

@tizzy1970 

Hi Tizzy 

Thank you very much for a lovely comment , Yes I understand how you feel and yes its definitely not the life we want to live in 🙂 so we have to keep strong even though its not that simple 

I wish you all the best Tizzy xxx

I woke up this morning really stressed out like I haven't even started my day. I used to get that a lot after wasting  my money on gambling, its the thought that you know that u have no money left and feeling hopeless and useless. I still think kow to win some money so I can pay my debt off even though I don't have  no money to play with in my head there is a stupid thought go and play u gonna win (obviously not).  I still have a couple of years to pay my loan , credit card hopefully until the end of this year and overdraft  will probably take me a month go get out clear o*g I am greatfull this page exist

#nomoreplay

Sorry I am just going to post what my thought are in this moment, I just have to let it all out to make myself better.

The worst thing is I realise that I have to work all the time and keep myself busy because when I don't all the demons comes in my head, lucky I am working 14 days straight so that will keep me busy, and I hope 2 weeks is enough for me to get out of this bad habit (probably not ) But I won't give up , This is my last chance , I have been struggling bad for the past 3 years even i wanted to take my OWN life because this stupid son of a b***h took my life away BUT NOT anymore 

PROMISE NOT GONNA TOUCH THIS s**t AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#NOMOREGAMBLING 

Another day and another day at work , all I did yeasterday was thinking of what I could have done with the money I lost is the last couple of years I know past is the past but I am  stupid isn't but that's how I feel today on the 2and day of Gambling free ,feeling like s**t basically 

if it helps I'm in exactly the same position. 

Lost a fortune which I didn't have and felt like s**t.  I started off on 50p spins and before I knew it I was on a tenner a spin,  then 50 quid fortune spins so literally thousands went in minutes 

After i reflected on what i coulf for myself with the money or the family etc but at the time it doesn't cross my mind. 

I've put an app on my phone to stop online gambling and self excluded from all my online casinos.    Plus I've even unsubscribed from all the gambling streamers I've been watching to try and remove all gambling from my life. 

Be strong, keep focused and take one day at a time

@dave208 

Thank you Dave for your kind words 

I wish you all the best 

Tace care 

Hi 

Thank you very much for responding to my posts , Yes I agree with 101%

Thank you for giving me strength and very good advice 

Take care 

loads of love

x

Today is the 5th day of gamble free(I mean not free 100%) because in my head there is a thing that keeps telling me to go and play especially when I live not far from the casino venue. 

I know its going to be hard but I am not giving up , I haven't got family on my own ,I only live with my partner , I keep myself busy , like I started drawing and that help me but not all the time , some days I close myself in the room and overthink and I panic. I suppose I have to find something else to keep me busy, like working is not enough, I have been working so much for the past 5 days like I am tired but If I wasn't working god knows where I would be right now (I don't want to know)

I am grateful for each day 

Today is the 8th day without gambling my money , I feel great I feel I have to power to quit for good , its was not easy as I was struggling for 3 years like I feel ashamed of it but I can't look at the past constantly . I finished work for today,  I had my coffee , gonna put some music on yt and clean then house , later on I am going to the gym to keep my mind off things , that help me get through the day 

I am grateful for each day as it comes

#NOMOREGAMBLE 

Today I feel like s**t , my bf makes me feel like s**t and everytime he made me feel like s**t I went to the casino to take that pain away, I wish I should have left him long time ago I wish I saved all that money I lost and moved out , but Now my main focus is to save some money and rent my own place out   but this will be he hardest thing to do harder then f****n gambling I AM STRESSED OUT,  like I don't even know what to say but at the moment I feel down , and the only person I have at the moment is him but he doesn't make me feel better 

Today is the 14th day of Gambling free

But I have done other bad things instead of gambling ,

Last weekend I have cheated on my partner I live with but I am not happy with 

One thing leading to another 

I am scared and to be honest I feel guilty and ashamed of it 

I don't know what to do ? Any advice please???