Hi
Any clean days we have can not be lost.
From each break out we learn to understand our emotional triggers.
Live for today but learn from the past.
On walking in to the recovery I did not think that I could abstain from Gambling.
Thinking about gambling I did not think that I hurt myself to much.
Working hard for money for myself and the home then simply give it away for nothing but increased fear and frustrations going to be as hard as I made it.
The recovery is all about a healing process, to surrender to the fact that my addictions were not fun or exciting they are a form of self abuse.
They work hard and give it away like it was nothing to me.
Part of a healing process is to no longer live in the pains of the past, to heal those pains and move on.
All the I was living in more pains I could not heal.
Today I understand being stable and clear thinking today that if I gamble I nearly always made things much worse in my life.
Keeping busy is a healthy habit for me.
For me working was only one third of my day.
What was I willing to do with the other third of my day.
Today I do not want to gamble because I know I will hurt myself and my family.
Today I do not want to gamble has nothing to do about the money.
The money was only the fuel for my addictions and obsessions.
It is very healthy to be grateful for each healthy day.
It indicates your values are getting healthy.
Thank you
Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK
Today is the 8th day without gambling my money , I feel great I feel I have to power to quit for good , its was not easy as I was struggling for 3 years like I feel ashamed of it but I can't look at the past constantly . I finished work for today, I had my coffee , gonna put some music on yt and clean then house , later on I am going to the gym to keep my mind off things , that help me get through the day
I am grateful for each day as it comes
#NOMOREGAMBLE
Today I feel like s**t , my bf makes me feel like s**t and everytime he made me feel like s**t I went to the casino to take that pain away, I wish I should have left him long time ago I wish I saved all that money I lost and moved out , but Now my main focus is to save some money and rent my own place out but this will be he hardest thing to do harder then f****n gambling I AM STRESSED OUT, like I don't even know what to say but at the moment I feel down , and the only person I have at the moment is him but he doesn't make me feel better
Hi
When I walked in t the recovery program I did not think that I could stop gambling or change how I felt about myself.
Every time I went back to my unhealthy habits I caused myself more and more pain.
It was important for me to understand what were my emotional triggers.
For me my emotional triggers were my pains, my fear, my frustrations, my loneliness and my boredom.
Your partner may be having unreasonable expectations of you.
When I went to the casino or any Gambling establishments I made things in my life much worse and even more painful.
I use to beat myself more than any one else did to me.
Because of my high levels of fears I use to go in to panic very easily and very quickly.
When I was panicking I use to say and do some very unhealthy things.
In setting a boundary for myself only took time, just for today I will not gamble.
By me not gambling I did not make things much worse and more painful.
Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK
Today is the 14th day of Gambling free
But I have done other bad things instead of gambling ,
Last weekend I have cheated on my partner I live with but I am not happy with
One thing leading to another
I am scared and to be honest I feel guilty and ashamed of it
I don't know what to do ? Any advice please???
Hi
It is healthy to abstain from gambling, it was a very unhealthy habit for me.
Well done on your 14th day of Gambling free.
It takes time to exchange unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.
For me going against my own spiritual values was very unhealthy.
You say you have done other unhealthy things instead of gambling.
At least you are being honest to your self.
And being honest and accountable helped me heal from those fears.
Walking in to the recovery program I was filled with so many fears.
You don’t know what to do.
It is healthy to find a person or sponsor who will take you through your recent triggers.
Being lost and confused is very unsettling.
Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK
Dave
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