Angel From Montgomery

Judy.

I am so inspired by your endevour to take the stick that gambling has beaten you with and two handed beat it right back.

Keep making the choice just for today, tomorrow I know gamble free will be better for it.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Judy,

Thanks for all your support 😉

Great couple of last posts there, i can really feel your mindset changing, being carefree wow sounds bloody good Judy.

Keep batting them urges down and keep strong

Smiling Lucy xxx

Hi Joan,

Loved the 70's theme......I certainly remember!

Osmonds...or david cassidy....lol....lol...lol

Loving your outlook!

Sue xxx

Thanks Duncs, Lucy, and Sue.. you all continue to be a huge inspiration for me as I stumble along my path..

G'morning Di, Er, Day 24:

Agian, it is early morning here and I am getting myself ready for work but noticing that something has changed. I do not feel that old sense of dread that I used to feel as soon as I opened my eyes. Dont get me wrong, I dont jump out of my bed singing "skippidy doo da" either... I just feel lighter somehow. I got on the bathroom scale and found that unfortunately that is not the case. lol.. I am on my guard.. This is Thursday and that marks the beginning of our weekend. I am ready for the urges and am fully prepared to b**** slap them back as needed! God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.. I am finally letting go!!!! To anyone reading my diary have a good day-- be strong!! Joan

hiya Joan...

Thanks for popping in and your kind words and hey....copy of any book duly shuttled over...lol

Its a dream but if I just do some little books for my pals kids I shall be happy xx

Love that beeatch slap ..back and wondering how I can get that title into some kids books...you're writing also makes me laugh Joan even though I know we are on here' for recovery...your character shines through ..

Also...I am selfish too....its not just an addict trait its also codep one too ..all this helping is self serving don't forget....take a look at how a persons character can change if you tell them your ok now and you've got your life together...codeps hate this as they loose power and can't guilt trip any more...

We are not at all christlike hun....just the opposite.... you just happened to meet an honest one in recovery too.... ....lol

I will be reading Joan and am really so glad you found this site and that your life is turning around...the weight of the world coming off your shoulders ...and dont worry about the scales that will happen naturally...letting go is so liberating and I know Joan that you are a good person ....like all of us on here...we just went too far down a wrong road and now all heading in the right way....

Courage to change the things we can right?.

hugs

R and D xxxx

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Hi Joan,

Loved your last post it did make me giggle. I have visions of you dressed in zena warrior outfit b**** slapping the s**t out of anything that gets in your way.

Small changes are great and even better that we notice them. Enjoy the start of your weekend joan your doing brilliant.

Blondie xxx

Thanks for the post hun ....your right....who the hell is he........lol

Donny def my pin up.....sad eh?

Hope your weekend is good and brings you new experiences!

Thinking of you my friend!

Sue xxxx

Thank-you all for your posts on my diary. Your support really really means alot to me!

G'morning Diary Day 25!

I used to really dread the weekends but, today I feel like the sky is the limit. I am steaming full speed ahead now. I can see nothing but the horizon. Calm seas and an open welcoming sky. I'm no fool though. The weather can change on a dime and I am always on my guard. I am going to savor these moments - take in all of the beauty that surrounds me but, will remain cautiously optimistic. It is easy to steam ahead when there are no obstacles in one's way. It's that balance that I am striving for. Moment by moment remembering that there are things I have no control over: at any moment out of nowhere life can loft an angry bird missile in my general direction --but, I have control over my thoughts, emotions, and actions. In that space above the churning angry sea is that peace that so often eludes me. Do I resist the urge to jump head first into the chaos or do I rise above it? It is my choice-- the thing is-- I am starting to get it. I think I am really starting to get it.. Anyway, enough of that s**t. In a few hours I will be dragged by my partner to an ENT appointment where I will have a rubber hose literally put up my nose. lol. SERENITY NOW! To anyone reading my diary, please be good to yourself today and stay strong. The choice is yours one day at a time. Today, I will not bet. xxxxxxxx joan

Hi Joan..

I always want to say "Hey jude"...

Good luck with your appointment...not very pleasant for you but soon be over today...and another box ticked off...

Awareness is where its at and you know where you are vulnerable which is the main thing and you can put safeguards in.....

bringing you more peace.......

R and D xxx

Hi Joan,

Thanks for the post.

I don't care DONNY was the king.......LOL

I think you have came a really long way in such a short space of time.

I was reading your earlier posts and they were filled with doom and gloom!

Now they are filled with optimism and hope!

So so glad you found this site......And yes I do count you as a friend!

Hugs Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Joan .

Enjoy another gamble free weekend, keep slapping!!!!!

Just for today make that choice cos tomorrow will be brighter for it and to echo womble I too am glad you found gamcare my friend.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Good morning,

Wanted to thank you for your post . Although I do disagree that the advice thing , all of of no matter how far along this journey we are , are only one bet away from not passing go . I feel privaledged that you took the time to post on my thread and I hope you will continue to do so, what you wrote made a lot of sense , something I can be blinded to now and again.

Anyways enough about me , you sound in fine feckle .

But not so blinked to think there will not be challenges ahead. Enjoy your weekend , cause it's a big move forward when you go from dreading them , to counting the days down till they arrive .

You take care , and thank you again

Shiny xxxxxxx

Thanks to all who drop in on my diary to cheer me on and nudge me along. This is no longer a lonesome road for me. I have met soo many great people along the way. And we are all really good good people we just got tangled up with betting and we are all moving forward and better people for it... Anyway.. on with it..

Dear Diary: Day 26

I have decided that since morning time is my best time that i would devote a healthy chunk of it to reading posts and writing in my own diary. It's Saturday so I have lots of chores around the house to keep me busy. We really neglected this old house over the last 10 years. She is still standing strong and just needs alot of love really... We have plans to tackle some minor plumbing issues and will paint the room upstairs.. There are always dishes to do and floors to sweep...all sounds a bit boring and mundane but today I embrace the boring and mundane. I do not miss the drama and chaos that we created for ourselves while gambling. Chasing money.. chasing time..literally chasing our own tails. Round and round. Getting nowhere fast. It made me so tired. So sad. It's dark here today. Looks like it is gonna rain but, I feel so snug and cozy. I've got plans today, and they do not include gambling. The urges still come but they are more like knats or little noseeums buzzing around my head. More of an anoyance than anything else. Anyway, time to get busy. To anyone out there reading my diary - have a great day and stay strong.

joan

hiya Joan....

Just a warp speed flyover the pond to say thanks for popping in ....always got the kettle on...

Your post reminded me of the fellowship slogan.."when I got busy I got better"....its hard to get going but once we do it takes on a good momentum and our thoughts are occupied with other wholesome and life affirming stuff...

Not allowing those rouge thoughts to rent space in our heads is the best thing we can do to keep the wolves from the door . ..crowd 'em out with living ...!!

Enjoy your day Joan.....routine is good and comforting...and a solid foundation .

hugs

R and D xx

Enterprise leaving town....lol xx

hey Joan, thanks for the post, yours an everyone's encouragement really help, because we're all in the same boat trying to turn our lives round,

it's weird how we're all addicted to different things, to me I would never play roulette or slots as I think in my mind there a con an you hardly win,

But yet I used to feel different with blackjack an the football, I thought I could win, how wrong was I.

stay strong Joan it's only day 6 for me but feeling extremely positive for the future.

Leddie x