@bm241pin5d Thank you so much. I hope things are going well for you also and you are being kind to yourself. 🙏. Take care.
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Still smashing it @pinklady. Great to see. Made me smile when you said you had £35 left. Bet it’s been a few months since you could say that. Exactly the same for me. Got paid yesterday and I could still afford to buy food or petrol the day before. It felt so good!! Crazy to think we used to live like we did.
Anyway, I hope the next few weeks fly by and you get settled in your new job. Exciting times ahead. New job, money in the bank, free time to do things. Welcome to the real world!
Stay strong 💪
@p6z38njbqm Thanks Fish. 🐟👍. It seems like we are both benefiting in so many ways by not gambling and in time, this will get even better if we stick to our goals. 🤞🙏.
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Day 59.
Payday tomorrow and I have only just realised that my salary will hit my account in approximately 30minutes! What a great feeling this is. So much better than gambling all my hard earned money in a matter of hours, as I did two pay days ago! 🙈. Then counting down the next 30 days, thinking it was never going to arrive. No way to live at all, especially when you work so hard for it 👎.
Tomorrow, my son is coming for a couple of nights (he is currently living next door to the “neighbour from hell”), so I told him to come up here for a couple of nights per week for a change, as it is lovely and peaceful where I live. We are off to M&S for a browse - he is looking for some casual trousers and I am going to treat us both to a “dine in for two” meal for Saturday. He is then going to treat us to a “posh” fish and chips delivery tomorrow evening. I am really looking forward to both! I believe small treats are so important, especially when we have goals in place and doing our best to achieve them. They don’t cost the earth either👌.
Look after yourselves everyone and keep tight hold of your hard earned pay. 💪.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Day 60 - Payday number 2 since I last gambled!
Just chilling out for an hour before our fish n chips supper delivery arrives. Went out with my son to M&S and got our “dine in for two”!😋. He got his trousers but I ended up treating him to these - he decided to give up alcohol (he is not an alcoholic but more the younger generation binge drinker). Anyway, as he has just passed his 6 month milestone, I said I would treat him to these. At £45.00, they did not break the bank and I felt good doing this. He has done so well with his abstinence so credit where it’s due. 👏. Plus, we are having a Remembrance Day for my nephew next Sunday so I want to make sure he “scrubs up well”!🤨.
Another tight month for me again this month but as I have said before on here, I am ok with this for now, as long as all my bills are paid (which they will be), I have food in the fridge (and wine of course for the weekend)🤪 and I can buy the odd treat 👍.
Take care all and for those of you who may take the time to read this, who are just starting out on here, please be assured that in only 60 days, your financial circumstances can improve greatly, along with your mental health!🙏.
Take care all and remember- treats are good 👍, whether they are for yourself or someone else! 👌.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Day 62.
My son has been here since Friday but he is just in the shower and going home soon. Then it’s clean up time - he is polar opposite to me when it comes to neat and tidy! 🙈.
The girls are coming over today, which will be nice. We are going to celebrate my 20 years in the Probation Service which is on 7th June. We are also celebrating the fact that I will be leaving the joint in just under 2 months. 👏👏👏. The champagne is on chill (ordered a stash of it from Sainsbo’s when it was down in price), and with an extra 25% off 6 bottles!! “Down there for dancing” as the saying goes!!😜. I always like to cash in on the wine and champagne offers and this I can do when I have not been gambling. 👍.
It’s the BGT Final tonight so hoping to watch it - if the girls have gone home by then and I haven’t had too much fizz!😊.
Take care all and so will I.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Day 63.
This time last year, to the very day, I received the worst news ever. 😭. My sister called to tell me about the sudden admittance to hospital for her son/my Godson. That week, leading up to the Friday, when, after being put on a life support machine and in an induced coma (a mass was discovered on his brain that was so big, it could not be removed), the decision was made to switch off his machine. Our whole family were just in disbelief and shock. How could this be? My gorgeous, fit, 6ft 3” handsome nephew. A fabulous son to my sister, his Dad and brother to his siblings. The best husband to his wife and Daddy to his two young daughters. How, after just spending the weekend in the Lakes with his Mum, Dad, wife and children, looking the picture of health, enjoying special family time could this happen?🤷🏻♀️. This week, I will relive the events of last year for those 6 devastating days that he spent in hospital until his life support machine was eventually switched off. My thoughts and prayers are with his family but especially with my sister. 😢. I know she is finding it extremely tough right now, not just for herself but for her family and in particular, her daughter-in-law and her two beautiful granddaughters 🩷🩷.
A topic has just been put on the forum today about health and what this means to you, for which I have replied. My family has learnt this past year that your health can be cruelly snapped away from you in an instant and that you can go from looking/being the picture of health, to suddenly and tragically no longer being here!😢.
Here’s to you Rich. 💙💙💙💙.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Such a heartbreaking thing to read. Really puts our problems into perspective. No matter how bad you think life is, you never know what’s around the corner, so enjoy the life you have, spend time with loved ones, treasure every moment you can with those dearest to you.
Your family will be so proud of you for going through all this and beating this addiction too. You will be a better person around them, spend more time with them, and not be in a lonely place. Do it for them, do it for yourself, and don’t let it ruin the hard work you’ve put in. It can be easy to dwell on bad memories and let it bring you down. Better to remember the good times and the impact he had on you and your sister’s life. He brought life to the world and his life should be celebrated. Easy to say I know.
You are one of the strongest people I see on here. I know you will get through this, and I know you won’t let gambling be a part of your coping mechanism.
Thinking of you and your family. Stay strong 💪
@p6z38njbqm Thank you so much Fish. 🐟💙. Much appreciated. Just in case I don’t make it on group chat this week and in particular, this Thursday - “Treat Thursday”! Which I introduced!! If you are on there, can you give my apologies and let the other guys know that I hope they enjoy their cuppa and treat and that I will be thinking of you all. I will still have my Treat Thursday and this week, it is going to be a Cadbury Wispa Gold!😋.
I will hopefully catch up on the group chat next week sometime, once my nephew’s first anniversary has passed. 🤞🙏. Until then, carry on doing what you are doing and keep taking good care of yourself. 🙏.
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Day 64.
Nothing else to say, other than still g.f and feeling really sad 💔💔💔😢.
Thinking of you Rich - now and forever 💙.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Thinking of you pinky. Look after yourself. Today is definitely a red velvet cake day. You’ve always got an ear to listen in here if needed.
Stay strong 💪
Hope you are well pinky. Thinking of you and sending you hugs. Missed chocolate night tonight as was walking the dog (I had him tonight and was super happy). Wouldn’t be the same without you there anyway so I say we plan it in for next week, with you as the chairwoman.
Stay strong and hope to see you back on here soon 💪
@p6z38njbqm Thanks Fish. 🐟💙. I was thinking of my chat fam earlier and did have my “Treat Thursday” cuppa and Wispa bar!😋. Just not been in the right frame of mind to record in my diary/go on group chat just yet. I prefer to give more thought and time to my sister, over the next few days as we head towards her son’s first anniversary away from us this coming Sunday.💔😢
I will return to my diary entries next week and will definitely log on to the group chat for “Treat Thursday” so have your chocolate bar at the ready!
Take care and keep improving your mindset and the rest will follow. 🙏.
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
Day 67.
Today marks my 20 years service with National Probation - in my eyes, this achievement warrants the equivalent of the George Cross medal!🥴. Ironically, I also have 20 more working days before I leave the joint and move on to a new and completely different working environment. Wish me luck peops. 🤞🙏.
”April fools - no more the fool”!
Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.
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