I fell off the wagon over Christmas and New Year and went on a bit of a spree. Got loads of stresses in my personal life at the moment and ended up losing almost £2,000. I just feel embarrassed and ashamed.
I had been doing so well and went nearly 300 days without gambling until I gave in. I just didn't have the mental strength to resist.
Mental strength and vigilance are needed at all times because as soon as my guard is lowered I know my addiction can assert itself. Even now, there is still a little voice whispering in my ear telling me I can win that money back. I know that is absurd, but the voice is still there.
I've taken the step of talking to some people about it who had no idea. These friends have been surprised but supportive.
I feel dirty, sick and ashamed at losing that money.
Hey. ..go easy on yourself...you done 300 days...so you can do it again...I'm only 21 days...so big respect to you for getting that far...remember when you 1st ride a bike...you fell off....so climb back on and peddle away again...good luck x
Hi scothead, sorry to read this,
300 days is an amazing achievement, don't let go of that.
You left a door open now you must close every gap in every way,, and leave them tightly closed at all times,
Sending you strong and positive thoughts to keep moving forwards,
Suzanne xxx
Gone 20 days and doing ok. Throwing myself into a few projects but still have the little voice in my head trying to lead me astray. Just trying to keep busy and occupy my brain. I'm afraid if I get bored I will relapse.
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