4 days gamble free
Sunk in now how much I have lost, have a date lined up and have no savings, in the red and have real expenses to pay. God, feel like such an idiot. Sub consciously the lack of money is stressing me out.
Josh280 wrote:
Dark horse it’s not a relapse if you continue to gamble every week.
Would suggest taking a long hard look in the mirror and asking yourself what it is you want to achieve? You’ve gone from inspiring others to where you find yourself today. If you think I’m provoking you then you’d be correct. I want to spark the person inside who can, not the person of current who won’t.
I’ve been you and I found my way out and you can do it to .
Read back up a few posts and you mentioned how joyous it was to be gamble free. You had everything going for you. You doubled your salary and then you let addiction back in. So you’ve gotten yourself a new job with a much higher pay to s***k it all away and increase your bets?
Above you say you took extreme measures and self excluded? That’s not extreme that should of been done on day one, not left to chance .
Recovery won’t find you , you need to find what recovery is.
Just take it steady you don’t need to keep checking odds that’s just teasing yourself and eventually addiction as it has will bite. Even if you don’t watch sport for a year it’s a price worth paying.
When fear ends faith begins.
You can do this
After some time away, if I'm honest, I thought that I could do some 'controlled gambling' and do it for fun like normal people, it's become apparent that I cannot. Expensive lesson to learn that I can never ever gamble. I don't miss it right now. Very stressed out at the moment, looking at accounts and seeing no money.
5 days gamble free
Easier to go a week gf once you have done it already.
6 days gamble free
Well done bud, like you say - it’s important to realise you can’t do controlled gambling. I had the same problem.
Chris30z wrote:
Well done bud, like you say - it’s important to realise you can’t do controlled gambling. I had the same problem.
Day 7 gamble free, went out the other night overspent so had to take out a payday loan. This is where my gambling money should have went, fortunantely will earn 2.5 this month so should clear a massive amount of my debt. Currently 3.3k in the red.
Chris, yes indeed, a very hard lesson
Day 8 gamble free.
Every now and then I come across a diary where I can relate to the individual absolutely and this is one of those diaries! Bloody hell darkhorse, I feel your pain!
Sports addiction is a monster. It's similar to its cousins of slots and casino but it's also different.
There's a ritual to sports gambling. The research and form guides. There's that battle between yourself and the bookie. That false expectation that you know more than the layer who has been practising his or her trade for decades. Reviewing the different betting markets... win loss draw, totals, handicaps etc. Assessing the prices. Making a selection. Watching the game. Anticipation. Long spells of edge of the seat adrenaline. Heart pounding. Alive. Then gut wrenching realisation. Followed by some calm. And thoughts of the next bet.
Sports gambling stints can last weeks and months. It's not a quick death but more a long enduring teeth pulling pain.
Try to get some relief and you've got to chance. The TV is full of sport and gambling adverts. Radio the same. Social media the same. News and websites... you guessed it... the same. Your mates. Your family. That n*b you need to small chat with over canapГ©s at a business event... yeah he wants to talk about sport too! It's a horror show.
The nightmare just continues and continues. Forget willpower. That won't help you. To get over it requires a total mindset shift. It requires an awakening that the game is lost and you cannot win. That is not what is in a sports gamblers DNA. It goes against everything but to succeed it must become reality.
I could not pass you more hope and wishes. You've got to keep going. Chin up. Day 8. Sod the haters. Grab the moment. Make it happen. You're a legend in my eyes for putting yourself out there.
Change wrote:
Every now and then I come across a diary where I can relate to the individual absolutely and this is one of those diaries! Bloody hell darkhorse, I feel your pain!
Sports addiction is a monster. It's similar to its cousins of slots and casino but it's also different.
There's a ritual to sports gambling. The research and form guides. There's that battle between yourself and the bookie. That false expectation that you know more than the layer who has been practising his or her trade for decades. Reviewing the different betting markets... win loss draw, totals, handicaps etc. Assessing the prices. Making a selection. Watching the game. Anticipation. Long spells of edge of the seat adrenaline. Heart pounding. Alive. Then gut wrenching realisation. Followed by some calm. And thoughts of the next bet.
Sports gambling stints can last weeks and months. It's not a quick death but more a long enduring teeth pulling pain.
Try to get some relief and you've got to chance. The TV is full of sport and gambling adverts. Radio the same. Social media the same. News and websites... you guessed it... the same. Your mates. Your family. That n*b you need to small chat with over canapГ©s at a business event... yeah he wants to talk about sport too! It's a horror show.
The nightmare just continues and continues. Forget willpower. That won't help you. To get over it requires a total mindset shift. It requires an awakening that the game is lost and you cannot win. That is not what is in a sports gamblers DNA. It goes against everything but to succeed it must become reality.
I could not pass you more hope and wishes. You've got to keep going. Chin up. Day 8. Sod the haters. Grab the moment. Make it happen. You're a legend in my eyes for putting yourself out there.
Day 9 Gamble free
- Not finding it difficult not to gamble, Josh was right, do not leave anything to chance, self exclude. I just wish I never found this c**P to begin with, must have lost over 20k in the last 5 years.
- Absolutely agree with you Change, the problem with sports gambling is where (and how I got into it) you get tricked into doing it from thinking there is an element of skill involved. There isn't. The odds are set in a way where the house has the edge, favourites for example have s**t odds, so all it takes is for them to lose once for you to lose all of your winnings. For example basketball my favourite sport to bet on, heavy favourites point spread will be very high, it is only when they are losing a lot you bet on them since their spread decreases. The problem at that point is where you are betting on them to come from behind and win.
The will power approach works if you understand the above.
Day 10 gamble free
pay day tomorrow
Well done on the ten days ...
Stay safe tommorrow. ...protect that pay...it belongs to you...xx
Day 11 gf
Thanks Loxxie
Pay has come through -1k in the red after paying off bills. Will be a s**t Christmas
One more pay cheque and I should be out of the red.
13 days gamble free. Nearly 2 weeks. Distracting my mind on other things.
Relapsed quite badly over Xmas period, now in 4.6k in debt. Maxed credit cards, taken out pay day loans and maxed overdraft
I have decided that I need stronger pre empertive measures, installed k9 blocking software. Should have done this earlier. I kept on checking odds which tempted me
3 days gamble free.
Blocking software (K9) is helping a lot. Out of sight, out of mind. It blocks betting sites, and ads. The latter would tempt me when I see odds.
Wish I had found K9 earlier
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