Day 200
Thanks for all your kind words and support its quite humbling and something I never expected when I signed up to this site.
201 days ago was my last bet a final roll of the dice. If I had won would of I of stopped? I very much doubt it. I still have a winning betting slip to claim, I will never claim it as I won't be stepping foot inside a bookies to claim it. Even now I don't trust myself to cash in and walk away. It's only £30 I should throw it away. That wasn't the bet I wanted to win it was the big get me out of jail treble which included a bet on Barca who decided to lose 4-1 to Celta Vigo.
I suppose they did me a favour but it certainly didn't feel that way at the time.
Managed to get though the weekend went to a GA meeting Saturday morning which was a smart move. Got my dose of medicine seeing the pain in a young lads eyes who has been having to sleep on his car due to the damage gambling causes.
Went out for a few pints yesterday and decided to nip out for a cig as they was lining up for the national ended up having 3 cigs while the race was on. It was not a pre planned decision but just felt right to not put myself through it. I could quite easily if had a couple of quid each way on something.
Next target 201 but more long term probably 300.
KTF
Congratulations on 200 days!
Got to love me Mum what a diamond she is!!
She's just come in and gave me a beer and said its 200 days today well done!!! I've not told her she just knew.
Oldhamktf wrote:
Got to love me Mum what a diamond she is!!
She's just come in and gave me a beer and said its 200 days today well done!!! I've not told her she just knew.
Congrats Oldham
Congratulations on 200 days. I used to go to GA at oldham. I will probably have seen you. Think I last went about 6 months ago. I'm gonna try and make a meeting soon but it's hard when I work late shifts. Is it still 19:30?
Yeah it is still 7.30 turn up late if you can't get there on time. I've been going since end of September so our paths may of crossed
When I say I work lates, I mean till like 2am so I think I might be a little too late. I will come back tho when I get a Tuesday off
Not a big Twitter user but have used it in the past. Just popped on my account and think it might need a bit of attention, it's full betting sites, useless tippers and lots of other gambling pages. There that many I might just stay again and delete the lot.
Does anyone follow anything about not gambling as I certainly didn't. I mean like GA or Gamcare things like that
KTF
Just searched gamblers anonymous on Twitter and wasn't expecting this.
I was at gamblers anonymous the other day and the guy next to me was addicted to fruit machines, he wouldn't stop nudging me all night
Smartars.e, who's been havin cake building lessons then ? LOL. It looks great !
There's a few people on there Oldham...certainly a lot of campaigners for FOBT reform. Just put FOBT into the search bit and a few will crop up.
Be warned though, some are anti-GA and pro regulation but an interesting read
Congrats on the 200
Day 202
Cheers Gary I did have a look round Twitter and was a bit disgusted by a lot of what i saw. While they was some positive stuff unfortunately I found the negatives outweighed the good lots of anger and a fair bit of mocking. I did find one interesting site called in the rooms which I might look into a bit more.
Attended GA with a bit of apprehension tonight but I need not of worried all 18 clean after that race this weekend, one newbie and one returner who realised he needed GA back in his life.
Some great therapys as normal picked up my weekly prescription and came away feeling refreshed and ready to tackle another week.
KTF
It's quite amazing what us Mums know lol, your Mum will be very proud of you and you deserved that beer.
Keep going and going.
Suzanne xxx
Day 203
Was having a distinctly average day which I was more than happy with, no dramas just the norm, until I decided to watch Scott and Bailey.
They used the venue of where I was supposed to get married in the one of the scenes, showed them walking down the steps I should of been stood at the bottom of waiting for the bride on the 4th December. We all know why I wasn't there ! hit me for six got a bit emotional to be honest.
To top it off I text the ex tonight to remind her it was on as its one of her favourite shows. f**k knows how she is feeling watching it.
If your out there reading this and on the final chance for god sake take it. Don't think I'll get away with it again eventually enough will be enough and you be out on your ear like me.
KTF
Hiya buddy, Tough one eh ? jeez I dont really know what to say but just felt I should say something , what the hell's the chances of that happening and you reminding the ex to watch ! , maybe it might stir something up in her and make her think ? .
Sorry Martin I'm just rambling a bit now , I'll leave it there but I'm thinking of you and you know where I am mate .
Look after yourself and KTF ! AL
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