Bye bye roulette, once & for all

Hi everyone, thanks for the posts, so nice to be welcomed back.

I havent gambled since i came back to the site but haven't had the chance to come on here as my partner has been off work, so thats one of the reasons i've not been gambling either.

I will be back soon to update you all on my progress, for now im doing ok, getting over the latest loss slowly, but whats done is done, im going to try and focus on looking forward and not back.

Again, thank you for the continued support, you really are a lovely bunch of people.

Hi Emily, Im ok (i think) Im starting to wonder now if im actually ready to stop or not, because as soon as i had free time (other half back @ work) i was at it again, I don't know whats wrong with me. I have money in the bank again, more than ive had for a while, is this why i keep gambling? do i want to be in debt? pass....I don't know. I don't know where my head is at right now. Another problem im faced with while i have this few thousand in my account, is that i cannot tell my partner where it came from (gambling) feels like my dirty little secret, well, i should say my other dirty little secret. I've been telling myself no more gambling trasactions on my statement from January, by then i'll probably have no money to gamble with anyway. Sorry for rambling on, i need a good kick up the you know what. Im not sure what else to say, but Emily thank you for asking after me, I'll always keep returning here with my head in my hands. Will 2015 be my year? I sure hope so.

Good Morning,

Well i must say i've woken up this morning feeling alot more positive than i was last night!

Plans for today: no gambling, just one small day at a time now, no jumping the gun, no getting carried away, the way forward for me is small baby steps. Here's to another DAY 1.