Can't stop

Day 2

Should be day 10 but stupidly had another slip. I'm managing to stay away from online casinos but for some reason the last two weeks i've been slipping by using fruit machines.

It first happened on Saturday, I went to watch the footy and had a couple of pints, next minute i'm putting notes in to the fruit machines like an absolute loser!

So i lost 70 in total, not a big loss compared to others but much more disappointing. I'd turned a corner before this, joining a gym and living life again.

This really is it now, I know I've not managed more than a week recently, but I will keep trying and still feeling positive about it.

Been the gym today before work, feel good, need to carry this on. Really need a new car, if I don't gamble, I've worked out I can afford one in 6 months. So this should provide another incentive to stop.

Thanks for reading

James

Hi James

Good to read you are carrying on and dusted yourself off,

Keep going and stay positive

Suzanne xx

Day 7

Hi all, just a quick check in as i'm mad busy at the moment. Finally managed to abstain for a week! Never did I think it was going to be this tough after going so long on my last big attempt. Maybe I had underestimated the challenge.

Anyway, keeping clean and living life as best i can, more to follow and will catch up with peoples diaries when I get more time,

thanks for reading kind people

James

Day 8

Things are going a lot better at the moment. No major thoughts of gambling as I've been keeping myself very busy. Been to work today then headed to the gym afterwards. Had my hair cut the other day and only took enough for the cut so knew i couldn't gamble.

Just trying to get on top of my finances today and it going to take a while but i'm doing all i can and that feels quite good.

The road ahead will be different but much more enjoyable than a life of lies, deceit and depression.

Keep going guys, life is good,

James

Hi James

Thanks for your post.

Good positive post

Well done on 9 days.

Keep going and stay strong and positive.

Suzanne x

Day 11

Thanks Suzanne! Still positive, not that many urges up until last night, really wanted to bet on the football but was able to think it through to the end and just pictured me being really down and upset, this was enough to stay away.

Things are going well at the moment, just got to keep strong, keep chipping away at the debt and get on with life!

Thanks for reading

James

Day 13

Unlucky for some, not me today, no urges to gamble on the footy which is strange. Don't really have the opportunity today though so that might be why.

Still plodding on, its tough but worthwhile!

Thanks for reading

James

Day 19

Still going strong, had the occasional urge but as time is going on its getting less and less. I also don't have any money to gamble with which is making it a bit easier.

The mountain of debt sometimes gets me down but got to stay positive.

Nearly three weeks without a bet!

Thanks for reading

Hi James,

Thanks for your message x

2 days off 3 weeks, you are doing really well.

Keep strong and positive, that mountain of debt will slowly go down, as long as you don't gamble.

Gambling will only in increase the debt and make you even more miserable.

WE CANNOT WIN BECAUSE WE CANNOT STOP,

So there is really no point in playing to lose.

Keep going and well done on your days.

Suzanne xx

Day 22

Thanks again Suzanne, you are very right, sometimes you look to gambling as a quick fix to financial problems but this is ridiculous as this is the reason I'm in debt!

Feeling very positive at the moment, especially now i've had over three weeks away from gambling, starting to see how good life is again without the evils of gambling.

2 days off, going to just enjoy them and keep busy

Thanks for reading

James

Day 29

Been having loads of thoughts recently to start up one of these online lottery syndicates. Luckily, I saw through it and was tough on myself to stop thinking about it. It's still a form of gambling and may triggered more thoughts of other forms of gambling as it has done in the past.

Just over 4 weeks gamble free now and i'm enjoying life again. There's rarely a day i'm not either at the gym or on my bike.

Money still a problem but it has been throughout my while adulthood whilst gambling so nothing new there.

Onwards and upwards,

Thanks for reading

James

Hi GamblerJames,

nice to see you've gone 29 days bet free!

I'm only 20 but in the 2 years I've been gambling (Online roulette is my weakness) I've got myself into more debt than I earn a year.

Twice been bailed out by my Dad and both time got back into the mess, I lie to family and friends and I borrow off them to help my fix.

But it has to stop, I have no life like this and its destroying me.

Just wondered how your going so well and what I can do?

Thanks.

Hi James

Thanks for your message,

Well done on over 4 weeks, you know it gets easier now ( in a way lol) .

And well done for not doing that lottery, because it is still gambling and as you say might lead to darker thoughts.

Abstain and maintain is the only way to go, and you are doing it.

Suzanne xx

well done on 29 days james, ive managed to stop for 21 days before that I nearly stopped for 10 months but 21 days ago I lost 600 on line roulette on *** ive blocked my account now so I cant gamble on it which I feel very proud of.

Day 33

Thanks for all the kind posts on my diary. Abstain and maintain, I like that saying, it;s soooo right! There really is no other way.

Not had too many urges over the last couple of days although today seen son odds on the footy this weekend and was slightly tempted. Thought the urge through to what this would lead too - feeling sad, upset, worthless, depressed etc etc and this was enough to bat it out the park.

So instead I'm off on a night out with friends tonight and can't wait. Going away with the better half in the half term too which will be nice and again can't wait. Would not be possible if i'd have gambled this month so a nice treat.

Thanks for reading, your advice and support is greatly appreciated!

James