Hi James,
33 days very well done.
Just think what you can achieve next month by abstaining and maintaining, One thing I can tell you, a calmer, saner, less stressful and healthier month, so why would you want to make that wrong choice.
Keep abstaining and keep winning.
Suzanne xx
Day 39
Wow, I'm loving this new site, easy to read other threads which I've been doing this morning from last year. Very similar to this diary in many respects so I must keep on my guard to make sure I don't slip like the last time.
It is a very hard journey, it's easy to write down now that I'm feeling okay as I'm not being attacked by urges at the moment but when they do come, they are quite hard to forget about. I am doing well though and need to keep positive. This isn't just a case of count the days and see what happens when I'm debt free and have disposable income again, it's got to be a lifestyle choice. A different way of living life without gambling,
Easier said than done but i'm up for the challenge.
Thanks for reading
James
Hi James,
Great strong post, and 40 days today of being gamble free.
Very well done, stay positive and focused.
Suzanne xx
Day 45
Things still going well, very temtped to bet on the footy yesterday but kept busy which subdued the urge. Still chipping away at the debt, which is a constant struggle but for once i'm allowing myself the odd treat.
Starting to get texts off gambling companies offering promotiions which is really annoying. My self exclusions from 5 plus years ago must be expiring. Wasn't tempted though more just angry and blocked the number from further texts.
Onwards and upwards
James
Morning James,
Well done, on 45 days, Those emails and texts are really annoying, I delete them all immediately, because I never ever won on bonuses, we know it's to entice us back in to the hell which is gambling.
Stay strong and keep going onwards and forwards and keep winning
Suzanne xx
Day 46
Thanks again for your kind words Suzanne. Deleting the emails and text offers from casinos straight away does make you feel empowered again. They are not even worth considering.
Not thoughts of gambling today, off work so going to keep busy. Going to head to the gym this morning and then do a bit of work on the house if i've got time before visiting my parents in the afternoon.
This day sounds a hell of lot better than spending all day watching a ball land on numbers i haven't selected so change that number for the previous one to come in. Then losing loads of money, being dead grumpy with my girlfriend and snapping at her for no reason and feeling down followed by lots of self loathing. Just a little reminder of the old days to make me never want to go back there!
Take care folks
James
Thanks James, and it's good to read you are getting stronger and even more positive,
Have a great gambling free day
Suzanne xx
Day 54
A few urges here and there but they are most definitely getting weaker and easier to manage as time goes on. Still staying on my guard and trying not to go in to town unsupervised which sounds so stupid to write but this has been where I have slipped up in the past. Any precaution taken is worth it in my opinion. Eventually I am going to have to learn to be strong and get the shopping I need to get without getting sidetracked with gambling.
Thanks for reading
James
Hi James,
Well done on 54 days of being gamble free, keep going and stay strong.
Suzanne xx
Day 71
Still plodding on, urges becoming less frequent but in some ways harder to manage. I was set on putting a bet on the football over the weekend, just about managed to stop myself but it was very hard. I always get to this point in recovery and convince myself that I am somehow 'cured' when deep down I now this will never be the case. I need to stay on my guard and keep going.
Thanks for reading
James
Hi James,
I understand what you are saying, the urges are less frequent, but in a way harder to control when they come.
Stay strong with guard tightly up 71 days is fantastic.
Suzanne xx
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