Changing for the better

No gambling yesterday, no gambling today and there will be no gambling tomorrow.

M

Time to get a grip on this rather shoddy diary, and turn it into something that may be of use to me later in life!

No gambling issues this weekend, and now feeling a lot more positive than a few days ago.

Taking this just one day at a time, anything more at the moment seems to big a task.

So, I haven't gambled today, and I will not gamble tomorrow.

Good!

Take care all

M

Yes, we can only take this one day at a time.

And well done on a gamble free weekend.

Keep it up!

GT

No gambling issues to report.

Air of positivity at the moment. Been here before though, too many times!

Important to leave behind the losses, but not forget the feeling and desperation that comes with them.

So, busy at work, immersed in what I know, and what I enjoy.

I will not gamble today.

Take care all.

M

Another gamble free day passes.

Strange happening a little earlier. Had to go out late afternoon, popped into a shop to buy some mints on the way. As I bit into one I had a feeling about wanting to pop to the bookies.

Appears the mints I had bought were the same ones they give out free in the bookies!

I have thrown them in bin!

Strange how things can try and catch you out.

Take care all

M

Time for some mental preparation!

Friday next week, customer Christmas function at a nice restaurant where I have eaten many times before. Sadly, it is in a casino! Wife is coming and I have decided to drive so the evening itself isn't a major concern.

I am more concerned about the days after.

Still, that's over a week away, so on I plod, one day at a time.

M

Once again, no further gambling issues or thoughts today.

Remaining immersed in work which is strangely enjoyable.

Still concerned about the immediate future with this night out approaching. Will just have to remain on my guard.

Take care all

M

Still ambling along the right path at the moment.

As quickly as things have improved over the last week or so I am aware at how quickly that can change.

Have stumbled off the right path many times, so need to focus on staying on the straight and narrow.

As I look over my shoulder, I can still see the demon, but slowly I get further away from him.

I hope he doesn't find a way to catch up!

Have a good weekend all.

M

Sorry to say this but you really do have to be on your guard at all times.

In my case, even after many many months gamble free, those evil gambling thoughts manage to find a way back to me.

But they always go away very disappointed after losing a battle of wits with me.

And you can do the same!

Getting There

Thanks GT for the words of advice.

Still plodding on in the right direction, one day at a time.

Pay day approaching, will dispose of all but a few quid into safe places out of harms (my!) way.

Need to have a bit of money for a sarnie!

Take care all

M

Morning Diary

Still gamble free, and gamble free I will remain for today.

Immersed in work, parts of which are dull, but neccessary, parts of which are interesting and fun!

Not much else to report, will see what the day brings.

M

Hey MrT!

I'll be joining you in your gamble free day. One day at a time will lead to better things!

Best wishes

TC

Bump up!!!

Hope you are well mate.

ands

Hi mrt,

just checked out your diary as I have been away from the forum for a while, glad to see you are doing well 🙂

From reading others' experiences, it seems the ones who are successful in recovery are those with a plan for difficult situations - like the night out at the casino. Its great that you understand so well about your addiction - not drinking alcohol incase it loosened your resolve etc.

Well done!

Take care,

f x

103 days since my last post. Hmmm, that's a bit poor! So, gamble free? Not entirely, but nothing, nothing like it used to be. I don't plan to gamble, or try controlled gambling, I just "slip" every now and then. But I have many blocks in place now. Do I carry credit and debit cards with me everywhere? Not no more. I have a limited amount of cash on me, but now I set my self targets of what I want to spend my money on. And I tell those close to me what those targets are. So, when we talked about going to Disney Paris and told the kids that's what we were doing, it becomes something I have to sort. And by having some blocks in place it was sorted within 4 weeks. That wouldn't have happened a few months ago. So what's the point of this post? I guess to show that you (we) can change. And yes, it does get easier and life does get better. My biggest danger remains, as ever, me and complacency. But I can now see some material benefit to changing. Will I stop completely? Don't know. Will I keep the blocks in place? Without doubt. Good luck all. M