Choosing life

Well done on three weeks, choose life is a really good moto! I genuinely feel like a different person by not gambling and being on that continual rollercoaster. Have a great GF week, take care S 🙂

Hi ND , thank's for the drop by :))........................and I'm glad youre feeling better than you where and that's a much more positive post above and hopefully a sign of good things to come :))

Soon be at your first month and continuing to rack up those day's no doubt , Enjoy your gamble free bank holiday and as you said " Choose Life " :)).

Best wishes my friend ...............................Alan

Thanks both. Plans are in place for the near future. Starting to re invest my time in my business. Still working hard but I can see it leading somewhere. Time to up the excersize now and that'll also make me feel more positive. No more wasted time.

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Well I've made it successfully through the bank holiday weekend without gambling. That's always been a downfall in the past wirh more time off work. It's been a much calmer weekend although a few urges have been coming and going. The usual fear of heading back into a working week is a lot less which is good. Next phase for me know is to cut the alcohol, which I have been doing but if I can knock it for a month or two I get so many more things completed when I don't drink. And I can continue with trying to work out my mind and my reasons for returning to this addiction of gambling time and time again.

Had a productive week. Worked out a very detailed plan of what I want to achieve over the next five years. Financially and emotionally. Tempted with urges, repressed them all and now sat in the sun At the beach. Up and down emotions still but much more positive. At Christmas I'll swap this day trip to the beach with a holiday instead. One day at a time and I'll get all the things I want, deserve and don't yet know about. Gambling can f**k it self. Choose life

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I just had a read through your diary. You're making good progress, congratulations on over a month gamble free. I managed to make 2 before my last relapse. Keep your guard up! I also drink too much & although I see it as less destructive, it clouds my visions and will power. I like the idea of a 5 year plan. I'm going to come up with a life purpose statement in the next couple of day. Have my goals written down so I can work towards them. I wish you all the best in your daily endeavours and recovery.

Cheers west sider.

Now hopefully putting all the ideas and plans I have running around in my head down on paper I can now concentrate on achieving them. I've made a lot of progress in accepting the losses, not totally but I'm not thinking about them too much. Everywhere I go I remember a gambling episode in them, not places to avoid just everyday places pubs, clubs, bars, restaurants, friends and families places. Just shows how much time was spent online gambling and no where was off limits. Now I focus on enjoying time there and reflecting on the emotions I would've felt chasing losses or false happiness at wins I would never collect. Life's much calmer and positive now, sleep is better and that's the way I want it to stay. The more time between me and that last bet will only improve this. And the good weather certainly helps

Day 35

Had a good run. Didn't want to go but glad I did. Feeling pretty tired last couple of days, but positive about not gambling. Watched some of the cricket today, lots of gambling adverts in the breaks. Urges still come and go, must stay strong

eBy abstaining from gambling I've given myself some clarity to work things through. I've began to rebuild my self respect and esteem. By cutting back on alcohol with it I've been able to really concentrate on the gambling issues. And the depression I've fallen into over the years of gambling. I've now started to take control of my diet and the weight I gained. All these things are positives and my mood is probably the best it's been for a couple of years. I obviously wish I stopped these gambling episodes sooner and that id not wasted so much time and money along the way. However I've proved to myself that I can make a success of my business over the last 5 years although I haven't given it the most care over the last couple of years. I should have a considerable bank balance but I haven't. A couple of grand in the red instead. That will correct itself as the recovery continues. I'm really focusing on that when the thoughts of the losses come. Urges still come, I can't expect them not too. They've been fed for 20 odd years, they won't disappear with in weeks or months. And I'm trying to find a new way of rewarding myself. Food, drink and gambling have been s the reward system in the past. Now I'm concentrating on a much calmer and less anxious life as my rewards along with nice days out and some things to look forward too. It feels a lot different this time around, hopefully I've finally reached my point to conquer this addiction. I will continue to fight it head on and will not give in to the temptation again. Lives going to be so so different in the next few years and all of it for the better. Now to enjoy

every day along the way. Keep fighting gang, we deserve so much more than feeding the fat cat bookies.

Managed to watch the football today without too many urges. Thought one market I saw in the paper whilst flicking through was good value. It lost and I didn't give In to the urge. Still fully focused on beating the addiction this time. Head is slowly recovering, although probably missing the self destructive company it used to give. Things look a lot better without gambling and the devasting emotions it brings. I'm only on day 39, by day 100-300-500-1000 who knows what I can achieve. I've a rough idea but have no idea what it'll feel like as I've never given myself a chance. This time I will win. And stay away from those urges for good. Happy Saturday and the sun is shining.

A tough week. Feeling pretty low, not sleeping great and energy levels low. No gambling although the urges have been coming more often. Need to change things around me and work on my moods. Oh to be happy carefree. It's within us all i guess, but it's a bit of a struggle to get there at the moment. Going to run over the weekend , that always helps

Still gamble free. Had a tough week emotionally. Feeling low although had a good day out yesterday and that has lightened my mood some what. The urges are still there even during this good day out but not acted on. It's pretty clear to me that the urges are at their strongest and I probably act on them most when I'm down. And it's so important to fight like mad during these times so that when the positive days come which they do, I'm not in a destructive position and brought back down by losses. And in time the goood days will become more frequent and that live will improve along with it. Just avoid that bloody gambling at all costs. But I also need to be honest and admit the urges are still there and present. But I will not give into them. Hope everybody had been enjoying this glorious weather in a calm state of mind.

47 days is fantastic!! Coping with the ups and downs seems all part of it I guess but once the urges are zapped a few times it does reassure you you're not gonna give in. Good for you being resolute that you won't give in. Take care and enjoy the sunshine and being G f S:)

Arrived at day 50. Up and down like a yoyo emotionally but no gambling. Focused on making all the small improvements day by day and watching the good life unfold. Urges still come and go. And from experience they come strong when my mental state is happier and I feel in control of things.

Day 52. First 50 days were about distancing myself from gambling and getting some mental clarity. The next 50 are dedicated to self improvement. Day by day. Keep fighting guys.