13 years of gambling now needs to come to an end ! I am now 30 years of age with 3 kids and a wonderful partner . I don’t know why but today for the first time I walked out of w**********l after another loss and felt like the easiest way for me not to put my family through this pain is for me to be gone from this world ! It’s a horrible thought but I can’t see any other way ... this is my last attempt to stop this nasty gambling habit and to stop being so so selfish . November 24 2018 I hope will be the turning point in my life , I prey and hope the thoughts of gambling leave my head and I can get over this life destroying addiction , I will now keep a diary and hopefully look back in a few weeks and years and say yes , this was the turning point in my life .
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I'm glad that you have mentioned that you will now keep a diary. This is a postive thing to do as its important to remind yourself of the progress you will make. We hope you get in touch and keep posting. Everyone here is struggling with the same issue, and they can tell you, it can and does get better when you start getting the help that you need.
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Day 2 , had a productive day with the family , still thinking about my last loss and why I was stupid enough to be sucked in once again ! But it’s day 2 and need to stay strong as a busy week ahead at work does seem to trigger the gambling ,,,,, let’s go
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