Day 14

Please don’t hurt yourself and seek help if you do relapse. It took me a few relapses before I finally stopped and it’s a journey of recovery and healing. Well done for making it here and please call the gamcare numbers for professional help.

dave101

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@dave101 I’ve had about a milion relapses so far I just can’t have another one I know my end is getting closer I don’t wanna go back it’s getting harder and harder to want to go on after a relapse . Day 14 today 

I appreciate all replies even if I don’t respond 

Hello @b35wu7ym1z 

Thank you for sharing with us on our GamCare Forum.

Welldone for being here and proactively working on your recovery journey! Sounds like you are doing amazing with being 14 days gamble-free ! However, it also seems that there are still feelings of regret and shame which you have been holding onto that is impacting your mood and emotions you feel. You are not alone, a lot of people on this journey also feel these emotions of guilt and shame. It is important to remember that we as humans, we all make mistakes and not everyone is perfect. Mistakes are a normal part of life which can be hard to forgive ourselves for at the time, however, you are here now and have started on your journey to make the changes you want to help prevent this from happening again. Learning from your mistakes and taking it as an opportunity to learn from it and being patient with yourself will help you to make even better progress! As you go day by day, you walk further and further away from that start line which will hopefully also distance the guilt and regret over time.

Recovery is very much an ongoing journey, there are good days and sometimes there might be days where you find yourself struggling with how you are feeling of other life events. However, you have a choice in how you respond to those ‘difficult’ days and situations to make sure you are able to pick yourself up stronger and continue on the journey you have chosen for yourself - which seems to be exactly what you have done!

We are here to support you along the way and you can always contact us through to our helpline to speak to one of our advisers for debrief on the situation - space to go through this together with someone or support in accessing 1:1 support with one of our practitioners to help you with your journey. Our helpline is open 24/7 and you can contact us via call on 0808 8020 133 or go through our website and chat to someone.

Best wishes,

Brielle

Hey Peter

Aren't you doing well, my friend?

14, or shall we say 15 days of no gambling, after 19 years of misery and suffering, that is a great achievement. Do not discount it, I know how hard,  daily battles of not giving up is. It took me, more or less 20 years to realise that.

I also lost everything I owned, to this pointless addiction, except of my family which I am absolutely grateful for. I am hoping that you still have the ones you love in your life, as they are the ones that count, not the material things.

I want to say that, please make sure that thinking of your past is a fleeting thought when it strikes, don't look into the barrel too long, because you'll get shot by that. It has a potential of harm, that is wallowing in thinking what you lost. Past is past as we cannot change a d**n thing about that. What's gone is  needed go, so let it go. Also, please do not rush to go off the earth yet, probably, our best days are the days we haven't lived yet. So, let's stay gamble free and try and enjoy what comes, because without gambling life is much more manageable. 

Keep going, you're on a right path.

All the best.

Ergos