dazed one

Hi and thanks, folks... hope to update soon. Fingers still very numb so I try to only type what I have to (and that's mainly for work) because my forearm gets aggravated when I type. Today is going to be a real challenge, though, because I have to go to an all day computer workshop. I'll try to post tomorrow but can't promise. I do really appreciate being remembered and am thinking of you too. ((((all))))xoxo

Hey girl

Hope you navigated through yesterday in that computer workshop alright. Don't worry about not posting as much, as long as we know you are safe and sound, it gives that light to our hearts.

((((( Carla ))))

Stay safe darling, and be kind to urself

S xx

Hi Carla, hope your well ? missing youuuuuuuu Dark Place /

hiya,

I'm mostly ok and hoping to most tomorrow but my fingers are still numb. $#$%^$%%&$#^@ lost post too! "talk soon" thanks for thinking of me1

Thank you for dropping a line and letting us know you are safe and sound...miss u too as DP here

((((((((((((((( Carla ))))))))))))))))))

S xxxx

Wishing I could post more but yes, still suffering with numb fingers and sore forearm and need to keep my typing to a minimum so I can function at work. Thankfully, it hasn't snowed much.... not sure I could cope if it did. Mood is alright and have been trying to exercise, though, wish I could do some weights but can't. Ipod on a treadmill walk with incline is just not the same as my routine in the fall with my h-ill walking which is now a toboggan area. S'all for now.

Hi Carly, ooops Hello Carla...

Thanks for your post, nice to hear from you again wrotten fingers and all... i am moving forward again ! nearly 3 weeks, wow ie ! anyhow hope to see a bit more of you on here soon. Warm hugs from England, Dark Place

Thanx for dropping by lovely lady..take a good care of urself..never forgotten always close in my heart..(((C)))

S x

Thanks DP and Sandra. Don't feel like I have much to offer. Like Shiny, Defeated, and SA, I'm very down and God knows what's happened to Soul. I paid almost all my bills but like a fool, I gambled the rest of my paycheque again. I went out for breakfast with a good friend I haven't seen in a long while and as soon as that was over, I found myself in front of slot machines.... I don't even remember driving there. I have no idea how I am going to get through this month... not even enough left for food. Have so much to get done but zero motivation. Did buy beer before gambling so I'll be able to make this awful feeling go away for just a little while. Wishing us all strength.

Just glad to see you well and sound......that's all i care about girl...to hear from you.

Things will get better darling...please be kind to urself...it will get better..believe me please

((((( Carla ))))) xx

hmmm, see your post , what can i say to you dear friend ? i just hope you can return to normal as soon as possible, what is normal ??? a question i often ask my self. Thinking of you and wsihing you strength, Dark Place x

Aww Carla,

You have loads to offer, without your support would i have started posting again? Even though we have never met you have been my main source of support for a while.

Now tell me what i need to do to support you? Because it seems like you need it, and the one thing ive got at the moment is time!

This could be our time, im reaching out to you, i think we both need each other.

Hello dear lady Carla,

Never,,, and I mean NEVER worry about me ok? I am just on thevride with ups and downs like all of us in this world. I go down, I close my eyes and take the plunge. If u can't awoid s***t life throws at us...let it be, deal with it.

As of u darling, I offered u my help b4, I can do again. Esp if u struggle to go by these next weeks, and you do need to have at least some food!!!! Give us a shout in that case, I am always here by ur side. Will help any way I can, it's up to u to accept it. Money is nothing, it won't buy u peace and happiness...but we need it for other daily needs.

((((( C )))) xx

Hi ya ,

Thanks for your post ref do you love money, i am not sure if i explained what i was meaning very well.

What i was trying to say was that most gamblers relationsip with money is born out of trying to get rich quick ! the thrill in winning of course but we can win and have more money by not gambling, we all know it ? when ever i have stopped gambling for a period of time i have always had more money than when i was gambling. You also see things much clearer and then that balance in life you are searching for will come automatically. Hell ! i am not preaching coz without a doubt i have been one of the wrost addicts to walk this earth. I am trying to make sense of it all however and cleanse my soul and repair my mind and heart, I wish i could wave a wand and clear yours dear Carla but life is not like that is it ? would be nice to sit down and have a few beers together and put the cat on the table (finnish phrase for getting everthing open) one day we will do that for sure.

Hope i made more sense but probably not, make money your servant now & not your master, you deserve better. Dark Place x

Thanks Defeated, Sandra and DP,

Am just doing a lot of feeling sorry for myself, I suppose.... yet, my situation is of my own making, of course. This pinched nerve is getting to me, too. Constant pain is not fun. I've been lucky to have a reprieve from the snow shoveling but the weatherman says more snow is in store for us shortly. I remembered that I have small amounts taken from my pay each month for bond investments which are cashable, though, there isn't much left since I did that last month too. I cashed what was available... $100 and I am hoping that another $100 will be available mid month as they do hold back some. I will need $100 of that for an automatic withdrawal near month's end. I have a breakfast date and two lunch dates at the end of the month which I will have to make excuses for. That's going to be hard as I will be with a group of ladies (no getting out of that)... suppose I'll invent a tummy ache? Three times?? I'll need a bit of the 100 (assuming I can access it) for gas for my car. Food-wise, I will manage .... love lentils and can find something creative to do with them. Blah, blah, blah.... Why I do this to myself every d**n month, I'll never know. To actually throw away money you need to live.... really?!! Helps to know I have support, even if you are 'over the pond". Thanks.