Deep breath and start again

Thank you for support message annie67, it sure is difficult in these early days as the storm of gambling destruction still howling at my back with the problems that won't fix for a couple of months. Staying on the right track and hoping to survive the acute initial aftermath. Stay strong, best wishes.

Day 36, how did that happen?! I'm staying away from temptation and really feel no urge to gamble at all, however I will not get complacent like before. This is the longest time in stopping my destructive and lonely addiction ever and I am feeling quite proud of myself.

I'm on holiday this week and just back from a lovely weekend with my family. My husband is off on night shift and my cheeky wee dog has jumped onto the bed and is now fast asleep, so it looks like I have company tonight! Tomorrow I am getting my hair done and am going completely different, because I feel completely different.

When I was furiously gambling I was not interested in the telly but now I am quite shocked at the number of adverts there are for online gaming and as the night draws in there seems to be more and more. These companies really know their market, the tired, the lonely, the drunk, in fact anyone vulnerable. Please don't let it be you and if you are struggling, come on here, write on your diary and if it's during opening hours then give Gamcare a call. There's always someone lurking around the diaries (me for one) and you might find you will catch someone for a chat.

Take care my fellow recoverees xxxxx

Hi annie , just wanted to say well done on reaching day 36 and another milestone , a wonderfull post that shows just how much your enjoying life again , and thats really great to see !.

Enjoy having your hair done tommorow , I'm sure it'll look great !

Best wishes to you and yours .........................Alan

Hi Annie , Yeah , I've got a bit of debt as well all to do with gambling of course but funny enough although I'm not thrilled about having it , I find it quite comforting being there in a strange kinda way , I know where it is and its going down slowly instead of up like it used to and it reminds me that I really don't want to go back to the cause of it all if that makes sense ?.

Glad to be walking alongside you Annie !

Take care and have a safe one ! x

Hi Annie,

Thanks for your words of encouragement on my diary and well done on reaching day 36.....and hopefully day 37.

Have a good day.

Damian

Hi Annie...glad you had a great weekend away...yes the adverts amaze me as well....so glamourised....but we know different....treated myself to a couple of magazines yesterday...early night...snuggles in bed with them....first story...' I won the jackpot ""....online slots yet again....so want to do a story from the other side of that coin....bet they wouldnt print it....lol...anyway...I hope your pleased with your new hair do...lovely to be able to do normal things xxx

Well day 38 what a surprise! Had an awful nights sleep so went on laptop and checking emails find a wee bonus from a online casino - 100 free spins. Now due to Gamblock I am unable to use my laptop for access to anything gambling related, so went downstairs and got husbands laptop to self exclude (although I'm sure I have done this before). Well it transpires I have some money in the account and I am unable to close the account until the money is withdrawn, but you can only withdraw over £10 and I have £7 odds. I deposited £10 then promptly withdrew £17 odds and once this money is deposited in my account I will get in touch to self exclude. I must admit at one point I thought '100 free spins can't do any harm' but the sensible part of me was shouting 'don't do it, ya bl00dy idiot'. I am really pleased with myself but, if this happens again I will deal with it when my husband is at home and he can oversee the palavar they make you go through to close your account and it will be another safeguard for me

It's plainly obvious that the objective was to get me gambling again with the lure of something free, but I resisted their ploy. My Mum always says, 'you get nothing for nothing' and there has never been a truer saying when it comes to the 'generosity' of these legalised bandits!

I tell my students 'every day is a school day' as we learn something new every day; today I learned that I am strong and can beat this vulgar addiction. Up yours, gambling companies and Power to the People. Day 39 ...bring it on!

Take care all on this slippery road of recovery xx

Well done Annie...they will stop at nothing to lure us back....so proud of you for ignoring those spins....and sell some on withdrawing the 17...I bet you were thinking ...""stuff you lot ""....or worse....anyway 17 is better in your account then there's ....power to us girlies who say f**k off....xxxcc

Great post Annie !!! . Take care Honey and have a great day ! x

My week's annual leave is nearly over, I haven't done much but have been relaxed. In the past I would have wasted all the time online gambling like my life depended on it. Pleased I have managed to fill my time with nothing! Off to do a bit shopping and going out for tea tonight with my lovely wee girl.

Day 39 and life is good. Hopefully should have my interview some time in the next week but have been told it's just a formality. So, hopefully in 5 weeks time I will be working with a more supportive team, with more hours and importantly more pay to chip away at my debts.

Onwards and upwards friends, today I am marching along the road of recovery! Take care all xx

Well done annie....all sounding grear....high five to us xxxx

Well done Annie 39 steps in the right direction and the big 40 tomorrow

KTF

Yippee, 40 days! I'm super delighted and chuffed to be kicking this destructive addiction into touch. I am and will always be a compulsive gambler, that is in my DNA; the difference is I am in control, no longer on automatic pilot continually pressing the self destruct button. No urges to gamble, house cleaner, quality time spent with family, healthy meals and healthy mind and outlook. Many thanks to all for the support and encouragement along the way.

I have found this site an invaluable tool in my path to recovery. I really feel I have 'turned a corner' but will never be complacent as this addiction can bite you on the b*m when you least expect it! I will continue to walk the road of recovery; today I will skip as I am feeling so positive, other days I may have a wee shuffle but it's a long road and we'll get there even if we have to crawl occasionally.

Take care my fellow recoverees. Onwards and upwards and take care xx

Morning Annie , just popped by to say big well done on hitting the big 40 ! Great effort and good to see you sounding so happy again ! Take care and have s great day!

Hi annie congratulations on day 41 gf xx i know what you mean about a cleaner house i have just gutted my kitchen and feel so much better for it. Off work this week so going to spring clean whole house and spend some valuable time with my family. Have my second GA meeting tomorrow 2. Am so pleased you feel so in control hun and have had no urges i bet that feels amazing xxx tc xx