Detemined

I need to stop this gambling lark before I lose all thats important to me including my husband, I was in a really good place 6 months ago , the debt was coming down nicely I was happy but now due to one thing and another stress at work which ive finally realised is one of my triggers , its having a huge impact, the stupid thing is all my family know i have an issue but my husband is also a gambler thou we gamble in different ways  or forms mine is slots nowhere other than the local arcade and no i cant bar myself out because i live in a small fishing town where every1 knows every1 i cant bear the thought of been talked about which will happen because at least 2 of the members of staff are huge gossips theres no confidentialality at all! My husband as my friend says is the biggest hypocrite going its ok for him to gamble he had debt once but got out of it due to promotions at work so hes learned to play within his means most of the time , he always seems to win big and boasts and that gets me in the when is it my turn, ive asked him not to speak 2 me about this, he has a huge disposable income , im down right depressed and feel sick at what ive done , but i have to move forward, i wont be going near the places I gamble going cold turkey is my only way forward , ive restarted some old hobbies and whilst today is only day 2 somewhere in the back of my mind im hopeful