Diary

Day 1

How do you feel about staying away from gambling?

I feel like ive got to stay away from gambling, the same as last time i managed to stop for a while. I currently feel exhausted, in debt, stressed, selfish and border line out of control again.

Day 2

Day 3

Is it a case of you have to or you want to?

Both. I want to stop but want to do it at the same time, it really confuses me. I want to stop because i dont want it to ruin my life any more than it already has done.

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Day 5

hi im on day 49 of giving up gambling, I gambled before and just after Christmas the last time I gambled was 27th December. im feeling much better for not gambling.

Hi Stop, keep it up, 49 days is really good. Keep your guard up as the days continue to increase.

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Day 7

Hi Dan well done for staying gamble free for 7 days.

I am 2 days clean but am still in the felling terrible stage - I know it goes in time so you just have to get through it.

Regards

G

Hiya Dan

Congratulations on 7 days gamble free. How are you finding it? Have you put any blocks in place or told anybody close to you?

Its good to see you posting so regularly, even if it is to remind yourself how many days you have achieved. Nothing really more needs said.

However, if you feel like it, try and put down how your feeling and your thoughts. Personally I found it amazingly helpful when i read back my diaries and managed to spot signs and symptoms, which helped me discover the root of my CG problem.

Your doing great. Keep it up

BE POSITIVE. STAY STRONG. JUST BREATHE

Kyle

The greatest win I will ever have is to learn I can never win gambling.

Hi G-Man & Kyle,

Many many thanks for the support.

I'm not feeling great at the moment. I managed 60 odd days on one occasion and just over 100 days on another occasion in 2013/14. Then returned to the old days both times, the most recent was in Jan 2014. I'm self excluded from almost everywhere and have blocks on my pc, i also haven't had a cash card for over 7 years. I can't tell anyone again as it isn't fair and i probably only have so many chances. I had to tell my mum approx 3 years ago due to becoming homeless because of gambling debt.

I might write more when i feel a bit better further down the line but for now i want to post each day. It sounds daft but it does help, i guess it's because i'm scared of having to write day 0 again.

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