Discovering my old self day by day!

Day 95 has been a quick one with me kept busy by my little one. No thoughts about gambling today, an easy day on that front. Took him out to soft play this morning, had I been gambling I may not have had the cash to take him. Just need to keep going, more of the same day to day, the kids and work keep me busy!

Quik check in on day 96, been a mega busy day in work and I'm exhausted. Dinner and bed for me.

Day 97 will be another day gamble free. I’m working all day and then have my GA meeting tonight. I look forward to the weeks when I can declare I have not had a bet since my last meeting. Long may this continue!

Day 98 and I'm on the night shift tonight. I'm currently feeling very very bored, in the past I would gamble to deal with this, but I don't want to gamble anymore. Got to remain focussed and get threough this lull, I will not be placing any bets today.

So here I am on day 100 on the night shift looking forward to getting home and getting some sleep. I used to put so much emphasis on reaching three figures or aiming to reach a certain amount of days........not anymore!

The truth is I’m a sick man and there’s no amount of days bet free that will cure my addiction. I will always be one bet or one day away from carnage so I need to focus on taking my daily medicine of avoiding that first bet and enjoying the riches that medicine brings me. Staying bet free one day at a time makes me a better person and I must focus on this for myself and the good of my family.

Dear WhereIsMyMind,

I am pleased to read you have reached 100 days. At the same time I hear where you are coming from - for some people the milestones are incredibly important - for others, an anti-climax, and for a few, even a risk. However, I didn't want the opportunity to pass without at least noting your achievement and supporting you in your resolution to continue taking each day at a time and affirming that for you, it sounds like you are staying very much in the present and focusing on the benefits of the gamble-free life you're now leading. Keep posting and keep moving forward!

Warm regards,

Leigh,

Forum Admin

Thaks for the post Lee, means a lot to get some support. Day 101 and not much to say really, other than its another day gamble free. Had a little thought about gambling earlier, but very quickly dealt with it and now its gone. Just got to keep focussing on taking my daily one day at a time medicine!

A few fleeting thoughts today about gambling, nothing too intense, but they are there in the back of my mind. Thought to myself how much better my finances are and everything I've got to look forward to. I need my moneyto enjoy life, don't want to be skint and depressed again because I have blown all my cash in a bookies.

Sorry WMM , belated congratulations on hitting the 100 day's of winning for real and welcome to the century club :)) .

Youv'e done great so far buddy but unfortunately those gambling thiought's / urges will pop into your head from time to time and the only way you can deal with them is as you are doing " One at a time " .

Stay positive and remember how far youv'e come and those thought's will eventually leave your mind just as easy as they came :)) .

Wishing you well my friend .

Onward's and upwards :))

Thanks for the post A 9 you were right the thoughts did leave my mind and today has been an easier day than yesterday. Day 103 has been spent with my little one and keeping him busy takes the time part out of my triangle. I have to be careful tonight as I have to go out of my local area and somewhere that I'm not excluded from. I will have to remain strong and not get tempted into any new bookmakers. If any thoughts did enter my head I will use my GA phone list and phone someone who can talk sense into me, but I'm sure I will be ok. Did some shopping this morning, only a few bits for xmas, but I certainly wouldnt have had the spare cash this close to pay day when I was gambling. Loads of positives to not gambling, just got to keep strong and get through one day at a time.

Day 105, another succesful payday done, another day negotiated without a bet. Been mad busy in work today and I'm glad to sit down and have a chill. Just got to focus on more and more of the same. One day at a time I can take my medicine and avoid that bet.

Hi just reading about ur dreams, I think they are trying to show u how u would feel if u did win big, when I had dreams like that I immediately started to worry about how I would ensure I didn't lose the money and where I would put the money. I have to Sa if we did get that big win it would also bring along some other issues. You hear of people winning the litter and having a terrible time of it. Grass is and will always be greener is what I think its trying to show u. But it has shown you how u would actually feel had u had the big win. Was it elation or did it bring other thoughts ?

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For me I no longer value money as something I want, are celebrities and bankers more happy because they have extra zeros in their bank accounts or are they miserable, who knows but gambling has made me hate money and want nothing to do with aiming to get more of it.

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Thanks for the post Adam, no matter how big my win was I know for sure I would give it all back!

Its day 107 and I have been having trouble logging on here from my iphone so its been harder to post. So just a quick one to say all is well and I'm still succeeding one day at a time.

Day 108 saw me have some urges this morning, they werent too strong but the thoughts about heading off for a drive to a bookies were in my head. Thoughts about taking a look at some race cards briefly entered my head. I kept thinking about how bad life used to be because of gambling and how much it will change me as it would not just be a bet this afternoon, it would mean I again wanted to spend every day in a bookies. So I saw them off and I feel ok now, I'm in work tonight so I will be out of trouble for the remainder of today.