B is adorable:). We have 2 huge dogs... thinking I should get them in the tub for a photo shoot.
Have a great gamble free day my dear.
Cathyx
Thanks Cathy xx
Emotional day. I dont like to be told what I should do.
I...i contacted GC advisor earlier and I got mad...because I was told pure truth in my face...blocks, hobbies, direction.
Nothing changes if nothing changes.
I think I was scared to get bk here. I was scared of reality, knowing I WILL have to make changes to get better. No other way round it. Im s**tting me pants...im really scared of letting my old soul go.
I asked if I can bring babs into GA meeting. See if I can..then journey would be more worthwile.
Head all over the place..no bet...early night...
& a song I grew to love..it brings me peace...100%..luv it!
Goodnight all
Who likes being told what to do 🙂
99% of stopping has to come from within, I think only someone who has truly been consumed by the addiction, not only financially but has lost hours, days, weeks and months consumed by it not sleeping not really caring about much else than the next mega win or the life changing hit. Will truly be able to offer support, because if you dont really really really want to stop no support group or individual session will stop you, as the same old same old churned out advice will just be like a broken record. Wanting help to show face and tackling the Gambling demons head on are different animals.
Thanks smashed, a lot of food for thought there.
Up early and sleeps wasn't too good.. but what a beautiful morning outside huh. Already back from the walk and full breakfast consumed.
Financial misery weighing heavy on my shoulders. The situation to put yourself in...i struggle to process all this. To get so low in such short space of time.
Maybe few changes on horizon. May be getting lodgers. Few positives there: get rent, have someone at home with babs while I can do some overtime.
Negative - lack of my own space...
But maybe that's something I need tbh - people around me.
Also thinking of new disciplined routine of getting up earlier so I have more time b4 work. Haven't figured out what for yet but sure some activities/ New hobbies will follow..Discipline is needed in my life.
Still waiting for a further referral from counselling & keeping an eye out for GamBan taking place for phones. For some reason I think this is the one to aid me in my journey ahead.
Anxious about work but as agreed - head down & get on with it.
No gambling to report.
All I would like now is a hug, shoulder to cry on and to be told everything will be alright...
Wishful thinking
(((S))). Do what you can to make everything alright for yourself.
Cathyx
PS Great idea about the lodgers.
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