Hey V
It's amazing how with 8billion on the planet folks can still feel alone .
Don't forget ..there are many people own here who are on the same path as you and do get it, The front page of their life looks different but inside carry the same feelings.
Was also listening to Outkast yesterday on the way to work..lol
R and D xx
Hi -V-
Dimmer switch is stuck but hell I am feeling a whole lot better, soon on 2 weeks and no real temptation to bet, which is f*****g great ! i just dam love that word ! have a great day and weekend my friend, Dark Place
It IS a f*****g great word. I might steal the use of it from time to time. It somehow allows the correct emphasis for thoughts but isn't as crude as the alternative....
Hey volcano,
Once i stopped trying to reverse the universe I found some peace. My dad always used to say, "s**t happens , its how you shovel it that matters", Dont let it pile up, shovel it and start to clear the path to better things.
We cant change it, but we can change how we think about it.
take care
blondie
TY, so much. Its the simple things, that brings a smile to this face. Have to remember that.
Dear Diary.
Embarking to work on a Sat, just taking the money, not much left for me on this job.
Got my marching papers yesterday, felt like via the back pages of a newspaper as i found out through the rumour mongers. I've always been a contractor, but f***k i still have a heart and the pm didnt have the bollxx to tell me.
Anyway as one door shuts another opens, albeit ajar! Was given 3 weeks, hoping i only need a week as i hand over the reigns to the pie eating, wheel inventing, white suited super heroe. Happy rather than bitter!!!
And as Blondie said ' shi-t does happen and it also rolls down hill, just have to find away to kick it right back up! '
Bath time and out
Hi Volcano
I am a great believer that everything happens for a reason, its good to see your taking the positive view ! if you did anything else i would be f*****g upset 😉 yeah ?
Have a great weekend my friend, life is simple we just make it difficult along the way.
Dark Place
Hey You
Love the new name,didnt need to tell me it was you i would recognize that style of writing anywhere lol 🙂
Hope your doing ok it seems your working through the anger by getting it down on here.
Lioness still roaring and cubs doing just fine although the little cub seems to have developed a roar to match his mums.
Carry on marching hun
Stay Strong
Simba and cubs xx
Every wall is a door. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
Hi Volcs
Hope you are ok buddy ? dont beat yourself up too much, life is a b**** and you know the rest.... Dark Place
Thanks for your recent post on my diary, Paul. I know what you mean about losing a long post to cyberspace. That seems to happen to me quite often on this site. Frustrating! I've been thinking of you. How are you? I've noticed you haven't posted on your own diary lately. Have you been job hunting? Are you alright?
TY you Carla & DP
Day 54 and stumbling along.
Finished up on my job yesterday and now back from 1st day of next contract. A tad of a low blow, with the negative thoughts drowning out any positivity. Never escaped to the gambling or the drink but did give in to the green.
A waster most would say, and would probably agree.
Its a wonderful world, just wish i was blessed with better eyes so i could see it.
How do i stop feeling? I need to find the balls to walk and not look back! I'm tired of the b/s, which i bring upon myself. I do dream of a switch, which is too easy. I go down and eventually i go up, but when?
Paul.
my friend I believe you are walking forward, it just looks like you are carrying a big sack full of all the shi##t from the past. Fella I know some of it needs dealing with but give yourself a break and ditch the excess.
as for the green, each to there own, I was a heavy user and it guts me to be honest that i f****d that up too.
Still enjoy some things it gifted my life though, aka the streets, steel pulse and Mr l.k Johnson.
three more things than gambling gifted.
it's a marathon not a sprint, lets enjoy the journey.
with honour and strength.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Paul ...
I know I'm your worst nightmare in some ways but I truly want the best for you ...
I have a gift...and it's this ....seeing a really valuable thing when I see it ..and seeing the true soul of a very good and lovely person even if they sometimes cant see it in themselves xxx
A million Tv's wouldn't be enough ExD & Duncs but here's another one. Thank you.
Dear diary.
Had a random night, waking up in Faulty Towers in the county of 'mad as a hatter '. There sure friendlier in this neck of the woods. A new best bud of 74 yr old Gerald, who happily talked At me all night. 7000 beer cans to make a spitfire, he happily informed me. That was my lesson for yesterday.
Talking S***e as i try to suppress how i feel and willing it to pass. Head full of false promises. Some how i need to just give up on dreams or goals. Would save a hell of a beating, i do tp my self on a daily basis. Have aged 30 years in past few months. Am now the ripe old age of 122, yet don't look a day over 97. Gambling, beer and green my secret.
Extremely p*s-sed off.com! Why?
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