Festina Lente

Just about to go climbing now, bribed my daughter with false nails. Feel happy again after a down couple of days. Venus must have moved out of my sphere of rhythm or some nonsense like that. Not going to gamble today because I chose to do something else, Steve Edmond Hillary

I can just hear the harnesses...

"Oh no! They're coming!"

Enjoy it.

NT

Hi Steve,

Ur post made me laugh soooo much.... Thanks 🙂

U r doing gr8, enjoy ur day with ur daughter 🙂

Stay strong and keep going!

Haha! Hilarious.. enjoy the climbing Mr Hilary... next stop Everest!

Lmm

haha I hope the princess isnt climbing in the nails the pink polish will get scuffed.

Nice to see you back on form ste, your posts do make me laugh, i bet kim is waiting with bated breath, she will see those teeth a mile off lol.

I thought a quote from your nemesis Sir edmond hillary would be appt.

I have been seriously afraid at times but have used my fear as a stimulating factor rather than allowing it to paralyse me. My abilities have not been outstanding, but I have had sufficient strength and determination to meet my challenges and have usually managed to succeed with them.

As i said very apt for you ste, your doing just great.

Blondie day 44

Thanks guys for all your words of support and ridicule, it's all appreciated. I really enjoyed myself, even if my nieces didn't, they just stood there looking at me in the rain. My daughter got involved which was quite a shock although it cost me an 'arm and a leg' later on in 'Boots.' climbing is hard but I took to it like a fat spiderman. My wrists were aching and cramping up after about a minute but all good fun, even my daughter enjoyed herself. A note to anyone thinking of doing this, don't and this is serious don't wear shorts. I thought those below were shouting screams of encouragement but apparently it was horror!

On a serious note, in comparison this cost next to nothing, a handful of ice creams, some posh nails, a bit of time and effort. Priceless compared to gambling. What do you get with gambling? Memories? Only bad ones and wasted years. Today was good, tomorrow who cares. I never gambled, today I won. Take care all, Steve.

Way to go Steve, what a great day you've had by the sounds of it, had a wee laugh at the thought of those below hollering at you pmsl.

Totally agree that its the good things in life that are free, or cost the least, and the good memories are invaluable, you can't buy those

anywhere.

Great to hear you so lifted friend, and I wish you nothing but good in all you do.

Have a great evening

Cameron

Thanks Cameron glad to hear you're still going strong. Day 63, 9 weeks today I decided rather reluctantly not to bet. It's kind of snowballed since then. All good, no regrets, determined to continue this. I want to see this through until at least the DFS sale ends, which realistically is never.

Going shopping with my daughter soon, I must admit I do enjoy it, dragging her round the charity shops as she points longingly at the fashion stores. Then I'm going to take her to an illustration class. Should be fun. That'll kill the afternoon, then I can shuttle her to her Nan's for tea whilst I take on those mighty fishermen in this evening's match. Time flies. I won't gamble today because I'm planning on being busy. Won't even think about it because I've put the effort in to get this far and my mind/barriers are pretty solid.

Keep strong all, that's my reaffirmation done for today do I'm protected, Steve

Enjoy your day Steve, shopping is one of those things that I had forgotten how to do, I felt like an outsider in shops, I didnt belong there, my world was the arcade. Not no more though !!

Good luck with the fishing tonight, watch out for the flies, bites are a B*****r !!

Great that your resolve is so strong, we can feel it in your words, and it inspires us greatly. Keep it up friend.

All the Best

Cameron

Hi Steve, thank u 4 ur kind words and support on my diary. It means alot 🙂

I hope u enjoyed ur shopping trip 2day with ur daughter. Ur posts always make me smile u r doing amazing Steve. U should be sooo proud of urself!

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Anyways know your fishing so you will not get this till after the event .

Expecting big things after coming 4 last week.Hope it wasn't raining, or maybe glad it was raining, do fish like the rain, does the noise make them more active, like wake them up or something

Dusty xxxxx

I'm up late, can't sleep. Legs are sore lifeless, spoke too soon about feeling strong again. Can still walk but it looks like I've got a bad case of hemmoroids. Fishing was a disaster, last. Even the heron beat me and he was only there five minutes. On the plus side I never gambled and I've taken tramadol for the pain and some other big things with an unpr.. Unpro... Unpronounceable..name. Because they're strong opiates they make me itch and because they're strong opiates they make me chuckle too. I should be annoyed with this scratching insomnia but the sense of well being compensates. I'll pay for this tomorrow though, I'll be walking round like I've escaped from a funeral parlour. On the plus side cashiers would be too frightened to accept bets from me on the bad side Peter Cushing will probably stake me on the way to the gym. Tomorrow, I mean today I will not gamble because I still don't want to, so there, put that in your pipe and smoke it.

Before I go I'd like to mention something which is bothering me. Since I gave up gambling I've developed an income, now ordinarily this would be spent on gambling but because Ive never saved money I've just been spending it on my family, days out, presents etc. every time I do someone comments 'ooooh big win on the horses eh!' this disturbs me somewhat. I haven't told anyone I gave up gambling, everyone knew I was a serious gambler but did I only ever treat people when I won? I must have been quite selfish if I did, that's what's niggling me, I suppose I did. For the first time on this journey I feel guilt creeping in and it doesn't taste nice. Do I embrace this feeling and take it with me or leave it behind. Will it make me more mature or just depress me? I hate (which is a strong expression for me) that comment 'must've had a big win on the horses.'

Good morning, one last itch before bed, stay strong.

Hi ya,

Sorry to hear you not feeling too good.

As to the guilt or the comments I suppose we reap what we sow. You are no longer that man, they do not know it but you do. I am sure it will pass in time.

You take care, get your strength back in time for Thursday, you don't want the boys thinking last weeks 4 th place was beginners luck .

Dusty xxxx

Morning Steve

Sorry to hear the legs not feeling too good , hopefully the drugs will do the trick and ease the pain for you

Herons , tricky fellows , their abit obsessed with this fishing lark so don't be too despondent they do practice more !

Steve as cg's we are selfish especially when on it , I know I used to chuck money at my son , mostly cause I didn't give him the time cause I was gambling but people do start to see a change and because they don't know why then they resort to ' oh had a win '

Tell them if it takes that feeling away

Try not to be too hard on yourself , we can't change what's happened but boy we are giving our future a bloody good go 😉

Thanks for your post on mine and thanks for making my morning start with a smile again thinking of your zombie look this morning

Take care Steve and chin up , your doing great

Lucy

hi steve,

sorry to hear about hemoroids, i ve been through this sometimes so i know how you feel ...

as far being selfish concerned...i remember myself when i was having birthday, i would never invite friends going out.even if i have won on roulette i would keep the money for gambling rathen than having drinks.but steve...hey....why do we have to feel guilty for the past?ok if we look back we can see many mistakes we made.so what?everyone made mistakes.NOW we have to get back to normal life and spend our money to things we like.in greece we have a phrase which means that at the end we all die.thats the true.so no matter how much money we have or not have everyone will die.life is short.lets live it.

take care

mike