First day on here

@haystack0915 Hey, you’ve done really well, you should be proud of yourself! 

I also agree that keeping busy is the best thing to keep your mind from being distracted by unhealthy things.

I think my difficult time was Saturday when I had the day of but I hadn’t planned to do anything so I tried to keep myself busy by playing darts which is one of my hobbies. Played a little bit of Xbox and had an early night.

I will definitely have things planned for when I’m next off at the end of the week.

Keep it up!

8th day on here, thanks to everyone who has read my story and taken their time to post on my thread. Stay strong!

9th day, still going strong. 

My 10th day on here today. It’s really helping me by posting on here daily. Stay strong everyone!

Hi you're doing really well. You're posting every day and that's really good,try it you can to add some more content. You will have good days, bad days and very bad days in your recovery,especially in the early days. Don't be afraid to share bad days bad feelings , getting it out helps and I found early on that writing negative feelings down took the power out of that feeling. And it's amazing when others post for you , give you advice on how to deal with how you're feeling. Keep it going one day at a time

@charlieboy Thanks for the reply, yeah I should at more to my messages, I do find it a little hard to post about bad things.

For example it was 2 days ago I was delivering at work and one of the customers was playing slots on his phone as I delivered to him. This did give me a weird feeling inside but I managed to brush it off fairly well.

Stay strong all.

I know today will be a bit harder than week days with a lot of sports being on. I am in a good state of mind at the minute though, feeling positive and keeping busy. I’ll be playing darts for some of the day which is one of my hobbies. Also we’ve got some friends coming over later on to watch a film with us.

Stay strong all!

Back at work again today, I’ve stayed busy on my 2 days off. Had a really good night last night watching a film with friends. Went on a nice trip out with my partner yesterday afternoon to get some fresh air. All in all I had a really good day yesterday. Here’s to this upcoming week! 
Stay strong all!

Thanks Dave, the days feel like they’re getting easier to get through without temptation. I just need to keep up with what I’m doing and not getting complacent. Working again today so will be staying busy.

Stay strong all!

Day 16, not really too much to say apart from I’m still going strong, I’ve not had any bad thoughts or temptations in the last couple of days. I’ve been waking up, making a brew and keeping myself busy for a few hours by either playing darts or playing Xbox and then going to work. 
I do plan to start exercising more, either by using the couch 2 5k app or to start swimming a few times a week.

Stay strong all!

So yesterday and today I’ve been off work. These days usually are the hard ones but I’ve  made sure I’ve stayed busy on them. Yesterday I went out for lunch with my Dad and then went to get my hair cut. After that I went on a night out with some mates. 
Today I’ve been a little hungover but I’ve been for a McDonald’s with my girlfriend and had a chilled day with her.

Heres to the upcoming week!

Stay strong all!

That’s the thing I need to keep doing, staying busy and interacting with people. I’ve not posted in a couple of days, I’ve had a couple of urges in the last few days when hearing about the big weekend of sports coming up next weekend. I’ve managed to take my mind off it though and I need to stay strong with this.

These are usually the weekends when I cave in but I am determined that I won’t let this happen this coming weekend.

I have made plans with my Girlfriend when I am off work on Saturday so this should help me.

Stay strong all!

So on Wednesday I was having a really bad day, feeling really down and I didn’t know why. As I went through the day I had a few urges to gamble and really struggled.

I spoke to my girlfriend about this and it was a really healthy conversation. She helped support me to get through the day without gambling.

I woke up yesterday in a much better frame of mind and now I’m feeling good and strong again. This just shows that some days can be hard for no reason that you can explain and you just need to get through these.

Stay strong all!

This weekend has been one of the hardest yet. When I was at work yesterday, all I had going through my head was I needed to put a bet on the golf Masters.

I managed to get through the weekend unscathed which is a really big deal for me. These are the kind of urges that I usually give in to however I stayed strong and kept reminding myself what happens after I usually give in to the urges.

I just kept saying to myself to get through this day and it will be easier tomorrow.

This turned out to be the truth because I feel so good now that I didn’t give in and I feel really proud of myself.

I spoke to my girlfriend about it just before the weekend but maybe I should’ve opened up more to her as the weekend unfolded. This is a learning step for me though.

Here’s to this week!

Stay Strong everyone!

Day 35… I haven’t posted for a week… The main reason for this is I haven’t felt the need to because I’ve been feeling really good and have been getting myself into healthy habits/routines.

Last week I was working Monday-Friday but I had an extra day off on the Tuesday. I made plans to go out with my mate for the day and we decided to try out some Golf (I have never played before).

I found it really tough but I had so much fun doing it. Apart from Tuesday I kept myself busy at work and didn’t have any urges during the week. I kept muting my radio when I heard the gambling ads, I have got into the routine of this now.

Over the weekend I made sure I stayed busy, went out for lunch with my Dad on Saturday and then to the pub with some friends to play some Darts. After this I had a mates birthday party on the Saturday night.

On Sunday I went out for some lunch with my girlfriend, my mum and my sisters family at a nice pub in the countryside. After this I was at a snooker/pool/darts competition at my local club which lasted until later that evening. After this I had a takeaway with my girlfriend and watched a film at home with her.

I am going to golf again tomorrow and aim to stay busy throughout this week again. I’ve found that planning ahead really helps me to stay on track.

Stay Strong everyone!