Definitely mate no urges today to play fobt. Like I have said cutting me card up is probably one of the best thing I have done. Day off work today just enjoying watching the cricket
Top man glad you had a good day.
Boro wrote:
I have been a gambler for the last 15 years but the last 5 have been really bad. I have got myself into 15 grand worth of debt threw it. The last 2 months have been really bad with me losing about 8 grand witch has left me penny less and feeling sick and depressed. I am addicted to playing the machines in betting shops especially roulette. When i go on i wont come out until i have won, or lost everything. I have come to the point were i have to change. Yesterday i went round all my local betting shops and self excluded myself and phoned neca to get councelling. Feeling slightly better but still cant get over what i have lost threw it. MONEY,GIRLFRIEND AND DAUGHTER. Gambling had taken over my life. But no more i must fight back
I just read this for the first time properly. It's quite moving really. Is your fight back well and truly beginning now? For some reason I feel like it is, maybe because you cut up your card this time. The more cynical would say you've been talking about a fight back for the last 6 and a half years... Does it feel different this time? I hope so. You need this recovery to work for you Graeme.
So... I know you're going to tell me that you haven't gambled since cutting up the card so all is good. But while you're on top of things... What further precautions can you take now to enhance your ability to refrain from gambling? How much are you willing to fight for this?
I'll be waiting for your message to tell me that cutting up the card is enough for you right now and things should be ok from here... But just remember... 6 and a half years is a long time.
What else can you do THIS TIME to further enhance your ability not to gamble.
The debt gone. I have more money than I have pretty much ever have had. I reply more tomorrow just finished work and just want to chill. But no gambling today
No worries mate. It would be good to know where your heads at right now is all... Also I think it's very useful to keep having conversations like this so you keep reflecting on where you are now and where you are going... This increased level of self-awareness may be a crucial player in the moment when you next decide to step into the bookie or away from it, get what I mean?
Just keep talking mate... The more we keep putting our situations into perspective the more the fog clears and we can start to see the bright lights of our future ahead of us.
Me head is all over the place not just with gambling but life in general to be honest. Gambling wise I don’t think I ever be able to stop totally. I be a lot happier come April when these machines are reduced to £2 but cutting me card as reduced any massive loss because in my mind no doubt I’d have gone back again and lost another massive amount. Yeah I could easily get another card but that’s not even in my head. Me brother gone to sedgefield races today could have gone but I think I have lost enough lately plus the money I have got in bank I want to get a new car in March because the car I currently have they no chance it will pass it’s m.o.t in April. But also in my head I don’t want to spend that £10000 on a car I like seeing that in the bank but I’d probably happily go and lose it in an fobt how mad is that. On a more positive note got a picture off my daughter first thing this morning of her Lego friends which she is building. Always make me happy when my daughter messages no matter what it is
Plus in the last 2 years I have gone from having basically having a choice of which of the 2 woman I love the most to none at all. The mother to my daughter and the mother to my son. Both pretty much want nothing to do with me.
No gambling. Life just boring but I prefer a boring life to gambling out of control and the feeling after losing a lot of money. Worst feeling in the world when you have lost everything
Feel your pain mate. Keep your chin up!
Boro wrote:
No gambling. Life just boring but I prefer a boring life to gambling out of control and the feeling after losing a lot of money. Worst feeling in the world when you have lost everything
Try not to focus too much on what life is like in this present moment if it's getting you down. Tell yourself that it has to get worse before it gets better as your body and mind 'detune' from the thrill of gambling. Ride it out and life will be beautiful, not boring.
Hey mate
How are you? Just wondered how you been filling your time since your last post? Keeping busy and away from those machines? I hope so.
Can’t see I have done much apart from work. But not touched the fobt
I'm glad to hear it mate.
No bets today. No going into betting shops to play on the fobt.
Well the urge was to strong. Been in betting shop today on the fobt was winning £* then you know what happens. Lost the lot apart from a £*. Had to come away with bit of money I had. But didn’t lose any of my money. What can I say I could tell lies and say I have not been in. But I always try and tell the truth
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