game over

Hey there bbs 🙂

Thank you so much for the post anf don't worry about not posting too much. We are always here, listening, supporting and willing you on.

54 days is great achievement!!! Keep it up dear soldier. Slowly and steady you will get to the place you want to be. Good to read you had a good sleep for the past few days. Rest is really important for our wellbeing. Peace with yourself. You deserve it, hope the calmness and peaceful sleeps will carry on.

As of cc...hmmm...it is still not fair lol..i am stuck on 163..but still got hope to get that combination lol...patience and i will get there lol

Take care and keep it up

You doing great

Be proud

Sandra x

Thank you Sandra, by the looks of things you will catch up with me as I'm not moving from 500 lol

The reason I'm posting tonight as for the last 15 minutes I've been getting a strong urge. I was reading someone's diary when they were describing a slot in detail and the feeling they got while they played it and it triggered an urge for me, I wondered if anyone else gets this as it worried me.

The last thing I would want to do is stop reading the diaries or coming on here if it triggered urges. 🙁

Babybluesky,

It is tricky one isn't....i would of gambled many times if i took every post into heart. You have to keep belief going...you have a choice to read a tread, and leave harmful stuff behind..

It is not easy...we do affect each others recoveries i'm afraid..believe in urself..a minute at a time..hour at a time...you don't have to head bk there...

Keep posting..we are all dealing with it..i know how u feel..please please don't let it affect u...you are better than blood sucking slots...give it a rest..have some sleep, and if u still feel the same in a morning..contact GC..they are big help mate...

Be kind to urself...please keep the fight going !!

S xxxx

thanks Sandra, going to take your advice and go and take a break and get some sleep and if I still feel the same in the morning I will contact gamecare. x

Thanks Julie,Had another good sleep, feeling a bit more positive again this morning, determined to beat this so I'm not going to stop what I'm doing just going to have to deal with them as they come, grow a pair and stand up to them lol, it's all part and parcel of the recovery I suppose. Just need to keep strong. I always feel more vulnerable at night.

Day 55 today,

Off work for another couple of days, time I lost some weight I've put on over a stone over Xmas so day I intend to start my diet and get some exercise, get me out a bit more.

hi babybluesky

Well done on 55 days! Im also on a diet and its flaming hard work but knowing that I have will power helps a lot! Best wishes x Linda - also 55 days GF!

Thanks Linda, hope your diet is going better than mine. Day 5, 8 weeks ago since I stopped gambling.

No further thoughts to play. Still feeling positive. Working the next few days then a busy weekend so that should keep my mind off it.

Got a head cold so going to get my work stuff ready then head to bed with a hot cuppa.

Take care everyone x

Thanks Julie, I just love cakes and crisps too much lol. I do this every year put weight on over Xmas then spend months trying to getting it off for the summer. I eventually do it, and so will you. x

Day 57, felt like cr** all day at work, just wanted to come home to my bed, feels like my head is full of cotton wool lol.

No thoughts on gambling though so all is good.

Hey bbsky,

Thanx for coming by and am over the moon for you, for kicking those urges in a nuts the other day!! That's all it is dear fighter - thoughts..nothing else, u don't hav to act on them.

You did brill and navigated through them safely. Be proud and keep going strong!! 🙂

57 days is massive achievement, keep making the right choice

Well done

S x

Ps no change on cc...aghrrr..but patience is very important key in success 😉

Can I join the insomnia club?

Morning BBS/Sandra.....

I've actually found that cc has been a recovery tool - but we maybe need to start a website for it too eh? 419 for me!!

You're both doing amazingly well - I'm often checking in to see how you're getting on.....in both CG and CC fronts!!

Keep going.....on both!!

Mr B

Hi Sandra Mr B, thanks for popping in and leaving your messages of support. Still on 500, you will both be catching up and passing me lol

Today is day 60 got the next few days of work so need to keep myself busy. No gambling today.

Can't sleep tonight, slept like a baby last week so shouldn't complain.

Kept busy the last couple of days, not been home much, no thoughts or urges so all is good with that department at the moment.

Head cold gone into my chest, felt cr** again today, was tempted to rip the backside out of my credit cards with retail therapy just to make me feel better, after a lot of debate with myself I decided against it. For the last three years I've not been able to spend money on myself and had to scrape by after spending all the money on online gambling and since I've stopped I'm still the same still scraping by, I can't get used to the fact I've got money and I still get scared to check the bank account in case it's all gone, strange I know!! I probably wouldn't even need to use the credit cards. Not a bad thing I suppose.

It's supposed to be snowing later today, so going to make a pot of beef broth and have a cosy day in, see if I can clear this chest infection before I go back to work on Thursday.

Day 53 🙂

and on STILL on 500 lol 🙁

Hey babybluesky,

Still on 500? Lol...me too (163 lol). Really hope you feel better soon and can have some well deserved rest. As of having more money now, d**n girl, it is something eh? I still get surprised getting bank letters through, and there is no overdraft present. It is great feeling, it is step further to the right direction my friend..

It might take some time, but every day counts.

You are doing brill and I wish u all the best in ur journey. Stay strong, believe in yourself because anything is possible....it really is and you are more than worth it!!!

Take care

All the best

Day at a time

Sandra x

Dear candy crush diary - why can't I defeat you L 425?? Lol!!

Morning ladies - just wanted to drop in an say hi - just about to leave for work 🙁

Also wanted to congratulate you both on getting to the place where you're in that financial place of security - September 27th is the date I'm aiming for that will see me looking at bank and credit card statements and not be owing money - feels like a long way away, but will be a joyous occasion when it happens - plus I want to start saving for our potential get together in January!!

It's not the financial benefits that makes the biggest difference though huh?

Keep going girls.....and not with CC lol!!

Mr Bx

Oops am on day 63 not 53, still can't get used to it.

Thanks Sandra, Julie and Mr B for dropping by and leaving your messages of support. x