game over

Hey there,

Firstly happy mothers day and u did make me smile saying you don't like your kids being grown up lol..who raised them to be strong and independent? I think the biggest credit to you my friend, the time and dedication you hav provided for your family is greatly appreciated and will never be forgotten. It's even nicer seeing kids coming back to the nest, knowing the love, warmth and happiness is always there and will never change 🙂

Have a lovely day, you sooo deserve all the smiles and kindest words on Earth, be proud and take it all in.

Thank you for your support, it is most appreciated and I'm very happy to stand next to you battling through the good and bad in this good fight of our lives.

Keep it up bbsky and be proud

Day at a time

Sandra x

bbsky being a recent family adoring dad ha ha i liked your post a lot. Well done on another day notched up. It's funny how i read other posts including yourself and each time i read there is something so similar to me be it family orientated or a feeling of self loathe. You know were not bad people at all were just similar people having a common temporary upset in our life journey. I say temporary because you and I and others had a temporary gambling problem which is now under control. I am rambling sorry just wanted here to say well done on another day G free and just let my mind wonder off there lol.

Your doing Brilliant

CainoRoyaLoser

Thanks folks, great support, lovely words, you are all good people 🙂 🙂

Day 115 not counting the days the same and losing track of them since reaching the 100 day mark, The excitement of counting days has gone.Must admit I've had mixed feelings about this site recently.

Feeling much better than I did last week, dark thoughts are gone for the moment. Accepting things will take a while to get back to the way they were.

Never thought I would hear myself say this but I can't wait to get back to work, turning my days into nights and getting fed up now. It's worked out nearly 3 weeks and I still have another week to go - some people are never happy lol

Pay day on Monday, no thoughts to gamble any of it so far although I have been spending money like it's going out of fashion, treated myself and my daughter to a nice hotel the night before we fly to Berlin, an executive room with free alcohol, mini bar and free drinks all day and in the evening in the executive lounge, think it will be a messy one. Just need to get my sun holiday booked hopefully it will give me the incentive to loose weight. Think I've been compensating gambling for food

Feeling deflated tonight after coming on here and reading some posts, I hope the right road is taken.

Day 115, feeling good today, enjoying a bottle of vino or two 🙂 nothing much to report. Had bad news tonight about someone who influenced my life tonight has died last week but thankfully through my work I managed to speak to him before he became too ill. Tonight I celebrate his life.

No gambling for me today

Hi Bbsky,

Ups and downs of life can be so rewarding and so cruel, as long as you choose your life and live it to the full (G free ofc). Glad to see you posting i know you reached 115 congratz but some people here inc me are always looking out for your posts. So don't run off yet ok 🙂

CasinoRoyaLoser

Hi bbs

Just a quick thank you for your support and well done on 115 days!

Linda

Hi CasinoLoser and Linda, thanks for popping by and posting,

Had a hangover all day, alcohol does not come without it's side effects. Went to cinema and then fed my hungry hangover with a BK.

No urges today, I managed to avoid the yearly bet on the GN that some members of my family insist on doing, I didn't even ask if any of them won and I couldn't care less. Did get a text from a site I've excluded from and I'm sure I've cancelled their text's before, it's amazing how they try and suck you back in, thankfully I'm strong today and will not succumb, just hope I'm as strong in the future if another one is sent.

All good for the moment

Hey Bbsky,

Oh no!!!! Dreaded hangover lol lol..(so sorry, didn't mean t laugh) but hey girl, look atvthe bright side - it's only a bit of headache and then you get your appetite back and eat for England!!!! And that's something t b proud of :-)))

Keep it up and march onwards

Very well done on your continued abstinence

Be proud.....and.....lol...wait for it...lol...KEEP CANDY CRUSHING!!!! lol

Take care

S x

Thanks Sandra and Julie 🙂

Day 135, I've not been on my diary for a couple of weeks, been busy with work and studying and took a break from being on here. I've not had many urges and at one point I actually forgot I was a recovering gambler. Life is getting better slowly but the damage I've done is never too far from my mind, not a bad thing I suppose as it ensures I don't become complacent. It's still early days and a slow process I'm just learning to be more patient. There are certain things I miss but I just have to occupy my mind with other stuff and realise they will never give me happiness in the long run.

Hope everyone is doing fine, I will catch up with other diary's at the weekend when I'm off.

Day 142 and a good week in terms of not gambling. I realised tonight when I go to the shop I don't eye up the scratch cards any more and it gambling thoughts do not go through my head 24/7 it's not the first thing when I wake up or the last thing at night that I think about any more. I hope this is not me becoming complacent!!

Got myself internet banking for the first time the other day as I've always been dubious about internet fraud and I had look back at previous statements from last year - nothing surprised me I know exactly how much money I was throwing away. I did think I would take some time in a minute of boredom and count it all up but then I thought what's the point - there is no point, the money is gone and that is that!!

I have managed to save quite a bit for my wee trip with my daughter, something I would have never have managed to do before while I was gambling also my car is due it's MOT on the 13th just hope its not unlucky for me, at least this time I won't have to borrow the money if the car needs fixed like I did last year.

Another credit card paid off this month, my debts are reducing nicely, I now have only approx 2k left before I'm debt free.

Anyone who reads this - it is worth stopping, it does get better.

All in all things are good - long may it continue.

Wanted to catch up with some diaries at the weekend past but not had much spare time, but promise I will soon.

Dear diary day 155 , things are still going well, not had one single urge since my last post, long may it continue. 🙂 There are days when I do believe I can beat this

My car passed it's MOT this week so that gives me more money to spend. Finding it hard to save at the moment, making up for lost money wasted on gambling I suppose.

Decided to only post in here monthly I don't feel I ready to give up my diary but at the same time am not committed to posting daily or weekly. So until the next time...