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Hi wee pal

Glad to read today's post 🙂

It sounds like you have had a great day.

Take care

Irene

x

Hi Sandra

The best posts are the simple happy ones and they always say behaviour breeds behaviour so let the happiness pass roundthis forum

Let it may continue

Castle2

Hi Sandra..

Sleep is so important ...i don't know how you keep it all together as I know you work night hours ...

Thank you for your continued support and helping me get my triggers in perspective ..bound by the hands of political correctness and may have to start repeating the mantra ,..accepting the things I cannot change , changing the things I can.....either my attitude to this idiot at work has to change or I have to get a new job...

Xxx

Thanx all xxxxx

And yes Rach, changing the things we can is the best approach in life. I finally closed the case which annoyed me for half a year at work, the bully worker come down to planet earth if not underneath it lol

Good morning diary,

Well, 5 weeks since my slip and feel good about it. 😉

Busy day yesterday, and calming down a bit today ha ha. Cleaning, washing, cooking and hoping to have at least 12 hrs sleep tonight before next round at work tomorrow. I can always hope lol 😀

All good in my little world,

Day at a time

Stay safe all

Hugs all around

Sandra x

Thanx Julie xx

Dear diary..back again.

Worried about money. Hmmm, i think i overspend a bit last night. 3 weeks till pay day and i've got :

1- sisters birthday

2- hairdresser ?

3- holiday( usually spend more when i'm off work)

4- night out with work collegues ?

5- last session with counsellor(want to buy something nice to say thank you)

6- spa ?

7- journey to Manchester to visit my friend

I put question marks where i don't think i can make it.... And those things was planned for myself to treat...maybe not yet..prob next year lol. Oh well...

Once again i will get out of my way to please others..but it's ok, it's ppl i really care for.

To avoid gambling ( for easy money) i have to give up some things in life.

Oh life can be a b**** sometimes 🙂

I will not gamble... definitely not to make money up. Better find part time job insteaf to fill my 2 weeks time off work..

Happy days..

Right..back to cleaning and maybe more ideas will follow up!! Lol..poor diary..

I will not give up giving up 🙂

S x

Dear diary,

Back again..of course. Struggling with urges like hell today. Really got myself in a corner here, but trying to fight back. One of the ways is humour. I am not up to laughing a lot ( hence my whole diary) but there is something i was teached by my dear friend i share house with..laid back, laugh, sarcasm always there, banter( thanx for translating Rach 😉 ...) and just look at issues diferently.

My Lithuanian personality comes out very often...moody, moaning, never happy, always hard on myself..

w*f??? We live once and have that shot in life to make things better. Not to sit and cry about how s***t things are...get up of lazy a** and do something about it!! Don't look for easy way out..don't moan( it can always be worse than it is)...

I suppose my diary has rainbow colours...good bad and ugly, and i only share my life with the world, because i am learning to let it all go. The poison of my life was eating me alive and with help of this forum and ppl here i am changing..for the better.

I would of never believe i can go so far. Get more confidence in myself, simply come out of my shell.

You, dear fighters see me here, not all strict and serious Sandra ( thats my image at work lol...otherwise i would get sacked lol)...and i am glad and lucky i can show my all sides here.

So thanx again all...i might come across as crazy girl sometimes...but cmon..life itself is crazy...and we have to keep optimistic and don't take harmfull things too much in heart.

Keep it up all

No gambling for today..just poor diary holding my ramblings!!:-)

S X

Hey Sandra, thanks for popping onto my diary. I haven't been on here for ages, saw an online gambling ad earlier and thought I had better update my diary. Sorry to hear about your urges but keep blocking them! Take care xxx

Hi Sandra

Thank you for my post and continued support. A very well done for battling through those strong urges, you have got over the worsr now so continue going and remain gamble free.

Take care.

Feb.

You're doing fantastic, girl. Keep fighting, fighting, fighting! Yes, I've been doing the hot milk and honey thing ... actually "almond milk" these days as I'm trying to cut back on dairy which is bad for inflammation. It hasn't helped with sleep but does help my throat feel better. Have done almost nothing but sleep for two days and now I'm wide awake in the middle of the night. Sigh. Keep up the good work.

Sandra

Take great strength i nthe fact that you are doing the right thing about those urges, they will come that I know too well it is as you said how you deal with them.

Straight in the face, for it well done

Thanks for thwe kind words on my thread I learnt a valuable lesson last week.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanx girls and Duncs xxx ...Duncs, i'm more than proud of you, recovery is trully bespoke ...you doing the right thing x

Dear diary,

It's ok..urges come and go. I really wish that one day i will not see it as option to dig myself out. A little more hope, more belief, and more strentgh..

To find my old self...where i was trying to put my life back together with no destruction of this addiction crossing my path.

I am out there somewhere...search continues.

Take care all

S x

Well good to see your still keeping up the good fight, keep it going girl

Thanks for your support, Sandra. It means a lot to me and is much appreciated.

Our old selves are within in, I like to believe. I was once a very different person, but to come through this and be on the other side I like to think I have grown and gained some wisdom from it. I always say addiction inhibits growth in us, but also believe that beating it can help us learn and grow that that much more too.

We are certainly lucky to be here, I know that. For every one us here, there must be countless others still stuck in that trap that gambling ensnares them in. Be thankful you are here and made that decision to drop the old ways and start over.

Wish you the best and well done on your continued recovery. I slipped too, so know what a bother it can be.

Keep fighting the good fight. 🙂

And to quote the wise words of another user - "The past is merely prologue."

-Alex

Sandra,

Thanks for the recent support. Been going through a difficult time and your words were much needed and appreciated.

Tomso.

Thank you so much dear fighters xxx

Good morning diary..slowing down and back in a middle lane lol ( did my speeding on a way home from work..which i think a fine will follow through...little christmas present for me...)

Anyway, back where i started. Just look back in my diary and am a bit shocked how many pages i got. I think i will reach a thousand posts in my 7 months recovery at this rate lol. I definitely see this recovery as two way street. And for me 50% of it works only because i can support others. I get so much out of just leaving a little encouraging word. Yes..my diary has all the colours..it's nice and ugly...so is life i'm afraid. Funny enough i tried to pull away from this site quite few times, only couse think i do others head in, ennoying posts, nonsense thoughts...but...i say but, because i still typing now lol...i really can't turn away from this site. I feel enormous strenght on this forum and that's what makes it work. Honesty, kindness, understanding, reality. There are no masks out here, and even if it looks if we post a lot of negative thoughts on here, it's actually massive positive in this recovery.Aknowledgement( prob spelled wrong lol) of the real situation.

I learn and learn...and am really sorry you dear fighters have to put up with me and my posts...at the minute i can't pull away and just working on my recovery in one way - forwards.

Breath now Sandra 🙂 dats it for today dear diary..time for zzzzzz...

No gambling thoughts and i am thankfull for each one of you and this great site for my continued positive recovery.( i can only try:-):-) ..)

Take care all and wish you well

Day at a time x

S x

P.s. sorry for my continued mistakes..i'm working on it too 😉