Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Thanks for posting on my diary.

I re-read a bit of yours and it was refreshing to see the path you went on. I wish it were me. Actually, I did nearly a year the first time, around the same time as you, and I miss that emotional stability I had at that time.

I am OK at the moment, had 3 blow-outs in 3 years, which is not so many in terms of time spent gambling (probably 12 weeks in 3 years) but they've all done serious financial damage. The next one would be fatal, so here I am again.

Well done you and good luck with your continuing journey.

Well, hey girl!! Thanks for popping by. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((Blondie))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Yes, who knows? -joanxxxx

Hey Blondie,

Hope all is good in your world. Just to thank you for all your support and kind words on my diary. Tough journey, but truly great to see what it offers when we abstain and maintain.

Enjoy all the good things in life and be kind to you.

Take care

Sandra x

Hey Blondie,

Hope all is good in your world. Just to thank you for all your support and kind words on my diary. Tough journey, but truly great to see what it offers when we abstain and maintain.

Enjoy all the good things in life and be kind to you.

Take care

Sandra x

Hey Blondie,

Hope all is good in your world. Just to thank you for all your support and kind words on my diary. Tough journey, but truly great to see what it offers when we abstain and maintain.

Enjoy all the good things in life and be kind to you.

Take care

Sandra x

Hey Blondie,

Hope all is good in your world. Just to thank you for all your support and kind words on my diary. Tough journey, but truly great to see what it offers when we abstain and maintain.

Enjoy all the good things in life and be kind to you.

Take care

Sandra x

Thanks Sandra and Joan xxx

Thought I would pop by and read a few diaries and update mine...

I've just been reading my first post when I arrived on this site over 2 years ago, and for me it sums up everything I knew already, I had a massive gambling problem for nearly 20 years and yet I only got real and admitted it to myself a few months after my dad died.

Was that the wake up call I needed losing the most important man in my life ever..... I would of preferred another kind of wake up call.....

I never thought anything good ever would come out of me losing the man who I loved and adored all my life, my hero, but I can actually say it it...

I realised how fleeting life is, how precious life is, how much I took for granted the people I loved and put gambling and self destruction in front of them.

I realised that I can either make a choice to change my life and get off the mad cycle of torture I put myself through when I gambled or I could continue to make my life a living hell and keep gambling....

When I was happy I gambled

When I was sad I gambled

When I was tried I gambled

When I was stressed I gambled

When I was bored I gambled

I gambled on every good or bad emotion I ever felt to numb , to numb out ..... To shut out my over active brain and the world.

I carried the weight of the world on my shoulder, along with all my guilt, shame, hatred , anger, at how stupid , selfish, childish and irresponsible I was..

It was only the action of gambling that numbed me out...once that was over that's where the fun began I could beat myself up for days and weeks about my actions, it kept the rush of emotions going , the panic of where I would find the money that I had spent, the adrenaline rush of having to tell lies...... I created my own CHAOS.

A form of self torture.....

That was over 28 months ago....

If anything good came from losing my dad it is this.....

Today I got busy living.... No bet today or since 23rd April 2012

Thanks dad xxxxxxxxxxxx

Well done on 28 months blondie that's a real achieved

Hi Blondie... and well done on your gambling free time. Much wisdom in your thoughts. I understand what you say. I certainly create my own chaos. I do it to myself. Time to change.

Keep working recovery. Am sure you will. Warm regards... S.A 🙂

Hi Blondie,

Very nice to hear from you, thank you so much for your kind words. Busy living hey?! Way to go, u got it and it is something so special to see. True inspiration and thank you so much for sharing. Progress not perfection i suppose 🙂 the choice is ours with each waking day. Keep it up dear soldier, and be proud.

Ps. If i remember correctly (excuse me if not) please send my hello to Rach if you still keep contact through Facebook. Best wishes to both of you 🙂

Take care and keep marching on...one day at a time 🙂

S x

The Guy in the Glass

by Dale Wimbrow, (c) 1934

When you get what you want in your struggle for pelf,

And the world makes you King for a day,

Then go to the mirror and look at yourself,

And see what that guy has to say.

For it isn't your Father, or Mother, or Wife,

Who judgement upon you must pass.

The feller whose verdict counts most in your life

Is the guy staring back from the glass.

He's the feller to please, never mind all the rest,

For he's with you clear up to the end,

And you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test

If the guy in the glass is your friend.

You may be like Jack Horner and "chisel" a plum,

And think you're a wonderful guy,

But the man in the glass says you're only a b*m

If you can't look him straight in the eye.

You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,

And get pats on the back as you pass,

But your final reward will be heartaches and tears

If you've cheated the guy in the glass

Yo,

Using my telepathic powers recon dusty climbed out of her hiding place for the day , get the impression that things aren't too bad in your world .

Well that brightens mine no end

Thanks for your post full of words of wisdom as always ,

Sending you a hug and yep miss you too

Take care Hun xxxxxxxxx

My blonde friend.

Thanks for dropping by, I often think of the early days of recovery and the good folk who made my recovery possible, you being by my side always making sense of my ramblings.

Funny because today the gift came by three

you, rach and that shiny one graced the forum.

Glad to read your resolve grows.

for me today recovery has simply become to valuable to throw away.

hope that woody is well.

Warmest regards

duncs stepping forward never back.

Morning blonde

Thanks for the post

Great to hear from you and echo Duncan's words about the early days when we were all starting out on our journeys , all our recoveries different in many ways but all with one common goal , we all wanted a better life without gambling playing a part

We all learned how to fight and continue to do so , really pleased all your hard work has paid off

Castle2

Hey Blonde,

Digged you out, pg 27 :-0
Just dropping by to thank you for all your kind words and wisdom you shared on these pages 🙂

Am very confident you are enjoying life and living it to the full!
a little update would b a bliss, it's always uplifting to read the amazing progress fellow soldiers are making!

Look after yourself and keep reaping the benefits of recovery 🙂
You're worth it my friend

Sandra x