Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hi Blondie, thank u 4 ur support on my diary 🙂

U r doing gr8, u should be sooo proud of urself!

A new wardrobe, think of how many shoes u can fit in the bottom lol 🙂

Stay strong and keep going xx

Yo,

6 weeks, as long as the school summer holiday . As a kid they seemed endless.

WELL DONE , and your next mission is ...........

You decide

Over and out

Dusty xxxx

Hi blondie

Well done , you are going from strength to strength

Clearing out the mind , way to go , that's what I'm doing too just puffing up mountains instead of clearing the house lol

Blondie your journey is really starting to take off and you help so many on here I hope we can support you as much back

Keep strong

Knackered Lucy xxxxxx

Oh blondie

Thank you for sharing that with me on my diary

It bought a tear to my eye , not for me but I love to here that fairytales can come true

For me great if it does but it's also ok if it doesn't , I have made the decision which is best for me x

Thanks again for sharing that and I send all my love for your fairytale future together

Smiling Lucy xxxxxx

hi blondie,

thanks for your post!dont worry about the tv, they are so cheap now!if you have gambled all these days imagine how many tv's you would have thrown!

keep strong!50 days are coming close!

mike

Day 44

This sums me up today and how i feel.

I am me.

In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. There are persons who have some parts like me, but no one adds up exactly like me. Therefore, everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I alone choose.

I own everything about me -- my body, including everything it does; my mind, including all its thoughts and ideas; my eyes, including the images of all they behold; my feelings, whatever they may be -- anger, joy, frustration, love, disappointment, excitement; my mouth, and all the words that come out of it, polite, sweet or rough, correct or incorrect; my voice, loud or soft; and all my actions, whether they be to others or to myself.

I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears.

I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes.

Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts. I can then make it possible for all of me to work in my best interests.

I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know. But as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for the solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is me. This is authentic and represents where I am at that moment in time.

When I review later how I looked and sounded, what I said and did, and how I thought and felt, some parts may turn out to be unfitting. I can discard that which is unfitting and keep that which proved fitting, and invent something new for that which I have discarded.

I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.

I own me, and therefore I can engineer me.

I am me and I am okay.

Blondie day 44 and all is well xx

Loved your last post.

I, too, am me.

The old me was horrible.

The present me is better.

The future me (2013 and beyond) will be the normal me.

NT

HIya Blondie..

Excellent post and so true.....

The authentic self and the authentic you ...thats te greatest gift of all and a good visual there of replacing parts that don't fit anymore or that we have outworn and outgrown...

Can relate to that Blondie and loved all your support through my recent MOT...lol..chucked out some things that were causing me to crawl along and not fly by.

Thank you and hugs

Dottie and Rach xx

An inspiring post Blondie.. thanks!

xx

Brillant post blondie and yesterdays as well.

Thank u 4 ur post really appreciate it.

You can and are doings this a day at a time

Haha - I am completely tone deaf so I won't be singing anywhere except in the shower maybe lol!

Chicken soup for the soul sounds great.. I might have to give it a read!

Thanks for your support as always.

xxx

Hi Blondie, thanks for your post.

Everything seems to be going as well, if not better, as expected. Whilst only you truly know how this up and down journey is moving you on, you seem a lot more up beat now that you are learning more about yourself. It's great to see !

You are walking a path many of us fear to tread.. that full on road of self discovery. As every day passes Blondie00 gets stronger... and you should be very proud of your achievements so far... long may they continue.

All the best...Jon

PS: Quilt cover and sheet in wash, The "Cup" is next to the dishwasher, My computer table is clean... that's something to write home about, room has been made for printer... so.... I have made a start :O)

Hey,

Imagine this trio! Blondie, Dusty, and Rachel! That would be quite some team! I would call you the thought provokers! Actually that really has no ring to it but I'll run with it :)!

The whole I am me post was great and one which I'm confident you could only have made by not gambling! You are stronger now, you can look at yourself and pick out the puzzling bits maybe even delve into the what's and the whys! Maybe not, maybe you don't need too mayb now Blondie is feeling at ease with herself!

Whatever your next step may be, be comfortable

In the knowledge the next step is possible through your successful days not gambling!

I and many others hope this Blondie is here to stay!

Flagg

Day 45

Its a funny thing this recovery malarky isnt it and how the mind thinks still even when your out of the gambling fog. I havent had many urges really none that i cant seem to shake off quickly, yesterday i had an itchy right hand and automatically thought about gambling, It was an itchy hand ffs not a SIGN that i should gamble because its lucky, If i didnt understand how this illness works id swear i was a lunatic lol.

Its my 3rd G.A meeting tonight and ive been reading up more about the 12 steps to recovery and how G.A beleive that you dont just fix the not gambling you fix the person also, I think im on step 4 which is "made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves", as i understand this step involves making a list of all your character defects ( there saying not mine im struggling with this at the moment but keeping an open mind) and all your character strengths and scoring them so you can see the things that you need to work on "One day at a time", I think im kind of doing this with my councelling and im consioucs that there is no rush and i should take it in my stride.

I am also finding it a little difficult to identify if my lack of motivation and drop in energy levels is just because ive hit the wall or is it due to a mental and physicall come down from gambling, one to ponder on another day i think.

Overall im really pleased with the progress i have made and i can definatly see a mindset change in how im thinking, I just need to remember that, Just for today i will not try and solve all my life problems in one day" and i will continue to go easy on myself.

Thank you everyone for all your posts and support, i love catching up on how everyone is doing its such a fantastic sense of unity on here and i couldnt have done it without you all.

Blondie day 45, Pondering... but not to deeply... Just for today i will not gamble

Hi Blondie.

Many thanks for your post on my diary page.

i've been attending GA for about 3 months. The advice i've received is to focus on step 1-don't hurry through the steps.

i've been thinking about the recovery steps but want to clear my mind first so i can give 100% effort to my recovery.

Hope you are well,

gazza