Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

I'm so glad you had a good time blondie, sounds like it has done you the world of good. 🙂

I didn't get on here yesterday but here is todays quote:

“We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.”

- Maya Angelou

Maybe as we move away from the gambling we are entering our cocoon stage? I'd like to think so. x

Hi Blondie

Well done on the 3 weeks control pleased that the difference is starting to show , the confidence and belief is comin back ur posts av so much strength and determination in them and life is so much better

Laughing is so much better than stressing , would u av laughed so much at the 02 3 weeks ago I doubt it very much

Life has so much more to offer and simply by makin the right decisions , be proud of urself

Castle2

Well done Blondie on your success in getting this far, couldn't have been easy but you're doing so well, take care and keep strong. Thanks for the post btw it was very nice and made me smile. Steve.

Well done blondie and glad you enjoyed your show, even if the footy didn't go quite as well! Dom

Hi blondie

Thanks for the post. 21 days keep up the great work. Will look out for the happiest person in the crowd next week!!!!!

21DAYS keep it going

Hi Blondie, thank u 4 ur continued support on my diary. It means a lot 🙂

Well done on the 21 days, u r doing gr8!

U should be really proud of urself 🙂

U r very supportive of eveyone on here, ur strength and positivity shines thru 🙂

Stay strong and keep going xx

Day 22

This certainly is a rollorcoster of a journey but then i love rolllercosters i just cant do the spinny round things, and thats how i felt before i stopped gambling like i was spinning round all the time, dizzy disorientated and feeling sick all the time with anger and worry and hatred for myself, but not anymore so i can handle the up and down bit for now.

So its pay day for me today which im a bit worried about and also my second councelling appointment so i need to be on my guard today more than yesterday.

I got involved quite inocently last night it some dangerous behaviour, I was looking on u tube for a film that someone in chat had told me about gambling, anyway i couldnt find it but i ended up watching videos of people winning big jackpots on fruit machines, i cant beleive how easily i was drawn in and i was mesmorised.

Once i realised this was dangerous for me which took a while i switched the laptop off and went to bed with my book. It scared me, It scared me as i was like a moth to a bright light but it also reminded me that i must remain strong and aware that even though i havent had many urges i can get sucked back into gambling anytime i choose to make the wrong decision.

Today i choose to keep my money and my self respect and just for today, I will not gamble.

Thank you everyone again for all your messages, i do try and post back on all your diarys to return the support you offer me, and it is very very much appreciated.

Blondie day 22 and very apprehensive. x

Hey Blondie,

Great to see you still gamble free and on 22 days 🙂 I feel I've been out of the loop a bit over the weekend but it's almost better to be away for a couple of days and then return to see people still winning the fight!

I'm sure others have told you this but you have very quickly become a hugely popular and valued member of this site you offer support to so many and believe me it's really appreciated! In return I hope you find encouragement and strength from people offering you similar support!

There are some days which can really test us and it sounds like you had one yesterday! However, If you needed a sign or encouragement that you are winning your battle daily then def use yesterday! You recognized the issue and you stopped it I'm sure there was a time not so long ago yesterday's events would have had a very different ending!

Congratulate yourself on a day well done!!

Flagg

Hi Blondie, way to go !!! 22 days -a m a z i n g !!

I agree with Flagg, you really are a valued member on this site, you wear your heart on your sleeve.

Your posts are so inspirational and you never fail to always say constructive things to us.

Massive congrats on reaching day 22,

Good Luck with the counsellor - will be rooting for you.

Take care.

Cameron

I think the the thing that stands out to me is that you very quickly realised what the youtube vids were doing to you and stopped watching them. Sounds like progress to me!

I'm sure today is a challenging day with both payday and counselling to contend with. Hang on in there my lovely. x

"If you are going through hell, keep going." - Sir Winston Churchill

Hi Blondie,

Great post, yes it's scary how we can be pulled back in but not us anymore, we know we want a better life and the only way to achieve that is by remaining gamble free!

Thanks for your support it really helps in tough times.

I hope the counselling went ok and you are still feeling the positive vibes!

Keep Strong your doing great

Smiling Lucy again

Hi Blondie

Well done on 22 days! Great going!!!

Thank you for your support on my diary. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who enters into these dangerous zones... although I wouldn't really wish it on anyone!

I have calmed down since my post.. feeling a bit more positive now and need to just put it down to one of them days... I might as well get used to them!!

Thanks again and stay strong x

I have in the past watched similar videos to those you mention, and in the past I would think about how it would feel it I were there, in person, and it was my money. Watching the videos never made me go out and gamble, I have to say.

I'm not going to say that I won't watch them again, but when I do, the only thing I will be thinking about is how much the person has lost.

Keep it going Blondie!!

Quack quack, congratulations on reaching two little ducks Blondie (22). Nice one, keep it up. Take care, Steve.

Hi Blondie,

What rotten timing, payday and something hitting such an obvious trigger coming together!

It must be coming together for you though to be so switched on, to switch off. So many would be falling at that stage, you are obviously a strong character to be so aware.

Good luck with the continued progress, stay aware but enjoy the future,

Mikey