Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Thank you so much for your post lovely, I have been feeling so down and so alone and I really, really appreciate it.

I am pleased things are good with BF and very pleased you are finding ways to let go of guilt. You don't deserve to be carrying all that guilt around, it weighs heavy and every bit you put down will make your next forward step a lighter one. Onwards and upwards for us both.

xx

all i can say to that last post blondie

carl

God what is with this weather.

Only 12 weeks til my holiday I may drive everyone mad counting down lol... So i think this is my 8th week smoke free and ive saved 300 quid from not smoking which has gone towards my holiday.

Had a few thoughts of gambling yesterday but i know that came from the fall out of the emotional post and thoughts about my dad, wont be acting on them and now i kind of expect them to come but im learning that for the next few days i will go a little easier on myself.

Ive been putting it off for as long as i can but the summer wardrobe has now gone away in the loft and im sorting out all my winter clothes, this year has flown by so quick another reason why gambling is not an option for me anymore, life is to short to waste on that pile of s**t.. lol.

I have lost count of the days but it will be 6 months around the 23rd of october.. GET IN THERE.. !!!! Im pretty proud of that lol..

Thanks for the post everyone.

Blondie xxx

hi blondie

carl

Yo,

And do you should be proud .

So 300 squid , hmmmmmm

Tinieee weeny yellow poker dot bikini ?

Shiny xxxxxxxxxx

Hi Blondie

On my time here I av wrote many personal posts on my diary and the reasons were to get it off my mind and to be able to look back and see it in black and white , so I hope it helps u the same way

Really so pleased ur doin amazingly well and six months gamble free is fantastic and I sincerely mean that it gives me great pleasure seeing people like urself changing their lives round for the better

Ur holiday is somethin else to look forward to and will be here before u know it as like u say am sure u will keep reminding us all lol and why not u deserve it

Castle2

Today I feel full of a cold, im in bed just bought some day and night nurse intend on knocking myself out shortly and hoping to feel better tomorrow. Cant get warm, even my bones are sore.

No gambling havent got the energy and even if i did I would be saying not today thanks.

Only good thing about today my new ugg boots arrived.. Oh i love them.. now i know its winter.

Take care all and remember.. Lets be careful out there lol.

Blondie xxxxxxx

Blondie.

just caught up with your diary and glad to see your guilt you carried is out, recovery brings us challenges good, bad and ugly. You take it all and keep turning it upside down my friend.

The money and the months stack up nicely together well done you.

Treat tuesday came a day late I see!!!!! lol.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

For the record, I know for a fact that there is a sparkle out there whom is emmensly proud of the apple of his eye.

hi Blondie...

hope your night nurse is kicking in and woody is being a good hot water bottle for you...

half a year soon and how the time has flown...good for you for not acting on those thoughts hun...

and it was a privlege to read your innermost thoughts about how you feel.

Always here and always reading..

hugs

R and D xxx

Hi Blondie,

Thank u soooo much 4 ur support in chat. I was really touched by ur kind words. Thank u 4 believing in me. It means alot 🙂

I hope u feel better soon, take care xxxxxxxx

Yo,

Sossssss to hear you are under the weather. Think that's what I had last week. Me I swear by cat tar pastels.

Anyways my very own fashion advisor .... no no no I am not turning up in a giraffe outfit. For man or beAst lol

Thinking a tux , whitest of shirts you know, to be honest haven't worn a dress since I my youngest got christened 19 years ago .I am a bit short , little legs. Me and dresses ummmmm not such a good look , trust me .......

Also as you have probs noticed not one who likes tooooo much lime light So wearing a dress like lady gaga had on today. Which was the same as Liz Hurley wore with the safety pins prob a bit to much flesh . Also you must remember I am fifty a size 18 , so do not be making this mutton dress like a lamb !!!

Oh my god feel like pulling out already.

This is far far tooooooooool stressful lol

Think my lovely ,with all your fashion know how this maybe your biggest challenge yet . Giving up gambling will be a doodle compared to dressing Miss Shiny for THE NIGHT ......

Hope you are feeling better when you read this , cause honestly mate , this really is not not the time for you to be below par , I need ya ...

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ps I could crash diet and try to get down to a 17 and a half by the end of nov do you think that might help ?

Thanks for taking the time to read my post - greatly appreciate your words of wisdom. I hope all is well at your end!.

Thanks again

Thanks for your comment on my diary. I really apreciated what you said. Everything you said is write 97 days is a great achievement

cheers graeme

hiya Blondie...

just a flyer...no pressure ..just catching up and seeing if your well

R and D xx

Wish this cold would bog off and leave me alone could of done with listening to the shipping forecast with rach last night had trouble sleeping.

Feeling wiped out and with that comes a dull mood, been really bored today as ive been off work theres only so much day time TV you can watch without losing the will to live lol.

It never ceases to amaze me why there isnt a dentist waiting outside the jeremy kyle studio he would make a fortune lol.

No gambling today, No smoking today, Lots of nose blowing and coughing going on but not much else.

Hope all are well Please cover you mouth whilst reading this just incase its catching lol notice how i didnt tell you that till the end..

Over and out .

Blondie xxxxxxx