Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Miracles do happen Blondie..and you have made yours happen...good on ya!!

Thanks for popping in hun...still processing and thank you for your kind comments to me....in th city tomorrow ...day 2 as I went in on Sat to get started..

pop in when you can as I know like Shiny you are also out there living in the big wide world....im not ready yet...too much changing still...GC is my port in the storm still

R and D xx

Another belter of a post my dear friend.

Just to add to jp's post yes I can see why we stopped that ride!! No more runaway train for us.

When my recovery started I said I felt like I was on a train heading over a cliff, I got off ran back a carriage every day, today, yes the cliff is still there we choose to run the route along side it, and the view well it gets better daily !!!!!

Just for today, let's better tomorrow.

A weeks time six months living for you.a well earnt reward for your efforts.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Blondie, really relate to that post. I have a relationship with my daughter now. You really made me think about that. Great words. Thank you. As for the other thing you mentioned. I will request my details are exchanged with you to forumadmin, you will have to do the same 'cos they won't accept one way traffic. I am happy to accept, the more the merrier. Look forward to hearing from you. Thank you. Ian. x

Hi blondie great to read your still going strong a day at a time hope ur holiday in the sun comes quick 4 u another reward 4 u from being bet free its funny when were away from gambling gud things happen in our lives in loads of different ways.

Keep doing wot ur doing blondie ur a gud un

tale care

Hiya blondie, holidays are coming, holidays are coming. Glad to hear things are well with you. It's great reading that you and your daughters relationship is back as it should be. Like you say gambling effects everything, it's such a strong addiction but when your free of it, wow it feels fantastic. Your head clears and so many things get better, your entire life can improve and in your case I think it has. You seem to have literally flipped your life on its head and your doing fantastic. Well done blondie keep leading the way and shining the light for us all to follow.

Hi Blondie,

Just been catching up with your diary and wanted to pop by with a dollop of support and a scoop of happiness.

You are doing so well, it is amazing how far you have come in such a short time. great to hear about the realtionship with your daughter. You are so right about gambling distorting our viewpoint.

We are back in the real world now Blondie, fighting the good fight and here to enjoy our recovery.

take care

Paulds

Thank you so much everyone for the posts.

I have been thinking alot lately about how my perception was so distorted whilst I was gambling and I always try and and follow what G.A say and try to take at least half an hour every day to try and put things in perspective because I have a disease of perception, and until i came out of that chaos that gambling created in my head and in my life I could never see this.

I am an intelligent person how could my perception be so distorted, It scares me when i think about it but in a good way I will always keep this at the front of my mind to try and avoid being complacent. I cant place one bet because I cant stop.. I dont ever want to go back there. !!

It will be 6 months for me next week and I will continue to take my journey one day at a time.

Blondie xxx

hi blondie

carl

Hi Blondie,

Thanks for your post on my diary. Great to read that you are approaching six months gamble free. Excellent achievement. The journey we are on is trully fabulous. The difference six months can make. Sometimes in life when we are trying to do better or stop something that is causing us so much distress and heartache we tend to wait for something to happen but when you experience the change for yourself you see and experience the benefits right from the start. It sure is lovely to read someone else's diary who has put their heart and soul into their recovery.

Tomso.

Morning my friend,

You know Mr Flagg is counting you down to that big day next week. I think your progress has been monumental and I often see Blondie welcoming new members to this site. For them to receive a post of encouragement and advice from someone who is living this gamble free life must give them a real boost.

I applaud you today and I know that clarity has returned to your thinking. Whilst gambling none of us think clearly and this distortion you mentioned is very powerful. For us to break that is testament to our commitment to recovery. It has taken time for clarity to return but return it has.

Now we have broken the habit of gambling our equally tough and important task is ensuring clarity remains. You do the recovery the right way and I honestly cannot see how things for you will become distorted again.

You are a star and I know that 6 months will just be the beginning for you.

Flagg

day 178

which means in 5 days time I will be 6 months gamble free ( im sure my wing man and chief counter flagg will correct me if thats wrong lol ).

Wow from acorns grow oak trees eh?, and thats how it feels, not that I think im an oak tree but it feels like ive grown up so much these past few months, Im still daft as a brush and have my dads wicked sense of humour, but I dont treat the important things as a joke anymore and ignore them.

My debt has come down about 6 grand since I gave up gambling and all that has happened one day at a time.

It was never about the debt or the money for me, it never worried me, what was important for me was taking the responsiblity to pay it back, I made this mess and I WILL get out of it, and get out of it i am. At some points ive had to hang on for dear life and crawl my way out, at other times ive been running up mountains but its been worth every step.

I will be attending my G.A meeting tomorrow somebody said to me that "I owe it to newcomers to be there so people can see how not placing that first bet and taking it one day at a time can change your life.

So today I know i wont gamble... Why the hell would I..

Blondie xxx

blondie.

you are so right in what you say about the Ga newcomer seeing what abstaining can to to folk, Turn that around and Me I have seen quite a few Shadows of my former self walk through the doors in my time at Ga.

Would I want to do it again!! Risk it all for a punt,that at best gives us tomorrows stake!!

Equally my dear friend Why would I????

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks for the post my lovely, hope you are feeling better now after the lurgy and cold sores? How was the wedding?

Yes whatever it takes. x

well you go girl and 6 months in aint nothing to sneeze at. hope to see it too one day but right now need a smaller picture to look at than that. one day is all i can suck up at a time but hopefully they mount to what ya got. thanks for the post to me thread and keep them days rolling

Hey Blondie....the countdown begins....yee ha

Amazing amount of your hard earned spondooli saved there and you should be v.proud...

Its true in the rooms when they say "gotta give it away to keep it" and step 12...

I stick around selfishly of course..cos its all about me..! lol...seriously tho...sharing experience,strength and hope from the heart.

Enjoying job..had a laugh with a pal as she was mid chat about herself and her fella...I stopped her mid sentence with a deadpan face and said'.."Enough about you...your boring me ...now lets talk about me"....

Thats how far I have come in recovery....LOL xx

Keep posting..T-minus 5 days

ps Got this Piccadilly station run sorted ..wear flats now for running. ;-0) xx