Thanks ODAAT for the almost instant reply. I needed that. Going back to your previous post I think it's about time I came clean to someone about how I'm trying to battle this properly now and that things aren't as rosey as I've been making them seem.
Not got time to whizz back up & see if you've already had my lecture about Mr Brightside's exit post in the 2014 challenge...I couldn't agree more with your thoughts about telling! Our addiction thrives on secrecy...Since letting my 'truth' out, I have been safely in recovery!
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Be strong - ODAAT
That's the day counter been set back to zero. I've been on a binge recently. Not too happy with myself. Thought I'd learnt my lesson this time but obviously not. Once I start I just can't stop. Even when I won I kept putting it back on. I know I'm like a stuck record bcos I've said this all before.
That's the day counter been set back to zero. I've been on a binge recently. Not too happy with myself. Thought I'd learnt my lesson this time but obviously not. Once I start I just can't stop. Even when I won I kept putting it back on. I know I'm like a stuck record bcos I've said this all before.
Me again...Did you ever get round to fessing up? We cannot win because we cannot stop! Unless you take serious steps to arrest this addiction, it will keep pulling you back! Now I know you haven't given up on giving up or you wouldn't be back here again (are you stalking me, you always catch me when I'm on nights?!), c'mon, nothing changes if nothing changes & you know how good recovery feels!
You can do this- ODAAT
Thanks ODAAT. Hope you're well. Really appreciate that you keep me in mind. And you're right I do need to stick at it bcos it does feel good. I've done some repairable damage. Not as much damage as I have in the past. Should only take a couple of months to pay off the debts but that's not the point. I should be saving not repaying. Grrrrrrr. It feels like self sabotage like I don't want to let myself enjoy a gamble free life and everything good that comes with it. I haven't fessed up properly. It will break my gf's heart and we're having a tough time for other reasons at the minute. I will tell my mother though who thinks I'm over this. I know she will be disappointed but she will understand. My sister graduates this week so when the dust settles on that event I'll tell the truth. Maybe it will help me abstain.
How you doing? Hope you're well!
Just reset the counter again back to zero. I swear on my life that's the last time I'm going to have to do that.
I'm back again. Done half the damage I done the last time and it hopefully won't take me long to get out of the financial trouble. But I need to stop now before I go to rock bottom again. I just read my first couple of entries to this from about 2 years ago. I've forgotten how bad things were back then. I can't go back to that! Tomorrow is day 1
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