HARMONY !

Heya Shiny!

Well, I'm not a happy bunny. Your poem has now made mine sound like a tune from a Junior High School! Hehe That was brill. Good show!

Sound's like your at top key, keeping the jar of life filled to the brim with no movement for any form of gambling which we need to do.

Oh, not sure if I posted on your diary about that Frog pic you posted on mine, well..I loved it! Thank's made me smile and I was at a low point. So thank you! x

Ok, enough rambling from me. Have a wicked evening and cya soon!

JP

Yo,

Alls fine with me ,like Duncs still working the programme with Mr B and find that my self confidence , and self worth are the highest they have been in many a year . Feeling exceedingly fortunate that I have found someone who understands where I believe my journey needs to go next and is giving me a guiding hand along that path .

This enables me to say no , something compulsive gamblers find exceedly difficult . Always believing that they must make amends for ever and ever and ever .

Once you forgive yourself and relise you are as worthy as the next chap . Life begins to improve .

I have been searching for answers , slowly I am finding them . My quest continues .

Shiny xxxx

Hey Shiny,

Thanks for the post on my diary, which as always is much appreciated. I trust all is O.K. with you. I, like others, get a little worried when I don't see you post on your own diary with the same frequency as I have become accustomed to over the past nine months but as long as all is well with you that is all that matters.

I have not been very active on my diary for a while now but a day doesn't pass without me checking out some diaries just to make sure all is well.

I am currently four days smoke free (again) and hope that this is it. I have been researching several quit smoking websites over the past week in order to educate myself on all things nicotine addiction and I have to be honest and say that in the past four days I haven't encountered one craving. Very bizarre. The stuff I have been reading is fantastic and fills me full of motivation. It reminds me of when I came here nine months ago. So far, I have learned that smoking addiction can be broken into two categories - chemical addiction, the actual physical withdrawal which lasts less than two weeks and peaks after 72 hours. The second is the pyscological addiction i.e. your brain tricks you into thinking that you cannot enjoy a situation or carry out a simple task without smoking because you always smoke when carrying out that specific task e.g. drinking/smoking. I cannot ever imagine going to a pub for a drink without smoking. I have been smoking since before I was allowed into a pub. This is part of the pyscological addiction that I will have to work at. Once upon a time, I couldn't go 24 hours without playing roulette in a bookies. That whole process was nothing more than pyscological addiction. Gambling and smoking may be similar to the extent that there is no physical pain to endure when giving either one up. All the torture is mental. I beat gambling by having a very positive and optimistic approach to the want of a better gamble free life. I aim to use these same beliefs to beat smoking and to re-train my brain as to how I think and feel about smoking.

Sorry to hijack your diary but you have always proven to be a fabulous listener.

Keep well.

Tomso.

Hi Shiny,

Thank u 4 ur post on my diary 🙂

It is always gr8 2 hear from u, I am glad u r ok 🙂

I think I would prefer icecream 2 lol 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxxxxxxx

Hello Shiny great 2 hear your in a gud place and yep it definitely sounds like Mr. B is helping you and Duncan and im sure use are helping him 2 so thats great altogether.

Anyting that aids us in our progress is a big bonus.

Have a gud day mate!

Take care

hi shiny

Carl

sooooo T minus how many days to the oscars, 2 yikesss. !!

Im sure you will look a million dollars and will knock em dead with that speech of yours.

You have earnt it my friend and I hope for once you will shine in the spotlight and although humble as you always are walk of stage with a cheshire cat grin on your face shouting... Whos the daddyyyyy lol.

Take care

Blondie xxxxxxxxxxx

one more sleeps ......

xx(((S)))xxx (gift wrapped )

R and D xx

Hi Shiny,

Just popping in2 say I hope u have a gr8 nite on Friday, u soooooo deserve it 🙂

I am looking 4ward 2 reading all about it 🙂

Stay strong and keep going xxxxxxxxxxxx

Shiny

When friday dawns I hope you get your rewards given for the huge efforts you give your work, me I know you will wake up a winner, why?? Because you stood amongst all to be counted, I know through this when you look in the mirror you can smile back at that reflection, you don't need to take this away by standing in front of those fobt machines, harmony is there keep working towards it.

A journey we both share, and enjoy it my dear friend, you earnt it, through hard endevour.

Me I will count you for what you are " today a winner"

Abstain and maintain (thanks smiler)

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi shiny

Glad iv got the chance to say av a fantastic night tomorrow night out of everything really really enjoy it , I am sure u will and will appreciate every moment

So impressed how u av took a step back and found a real good balance with this site and I av to thank u for that as it helped me enormously and am starting to find a good balance too and its really working

Its all bout goin forward in life and making those changes to live a better life and its great to see so many of us making that step change

Mg is now undecided who she wants to win don't think she really minds as long as the show goes on

Av a fab time and can't wait to hear all bout it

Thoughts with u as always esp more for tomorrow night

Castle2

Yo,

Thank you you for your good wishes .

It is actually a lunchen do, starting with a breakfast coffe and Danish .

Sure it will be absolutely fabulous .

Will post when I get home tomorrow evening unless I am slaughtered . Not a good idea that , too many big wigs lol

re Castles post , yep it's taken me a year , but I do believe I have found a balance with this site . At times I have found it all consuming , especially emotionally .

Taking the relapses very hard , and the spats even harder .

At first it seems really hard to break away , you almost feel like you are letting people down. They obviously care about you , and by not replying to posts , or posting every day , it seemed wrong . But I am over that now . I read regularly , I have set aside 2 hours a week to catch up with those I have formed a bond with and post on their threads . I am by no means saying this is the way to go, but it works for me .

I still care but I needed to find a way to balance it all . As you know my goal is to live in Harmony with my addiction , Gamcare this site will always play a major part in that , so what I am doing I see as a good thing .

To me it's the next faze on my journey .

Laters

Shiny xxxx

Evening,

Wow the big day arrives 🙂 make sure you have a wonderful time. Sure you will be here tomo night reporting on a fantastic day.

Loved the post. You and I always say each to their own in recovery, find the balance, find what works for you etc etc. It's funny because we have completely contrasting things which work but our ultimate philosophy is totally in sync.

I have missed your regular presence but at the same time been 100% happy that you have found a comfortable middle. We both know the double decker dates are there if ever required. I think that's how we roll always got half an eye on each other, makes me smile!!

Flagg

shiny

carl

Hey Shiny b*m lol.

Just wanted to say have a fantabulous time tomorrow Im sure you will and yeah why not get a little bit slaughtered espeicially if its free.

Enjoy yourself and soak up the glory you deserve it.

Take care

Blondie xxxxxxxx