Have to start afresh for my son max bear diary.

Day 104 strong strong strong gym again today running hard getting quicker no thoughts of gambling yeah was given a tip for a horse at York this will happen now and then but me placing bet on it will not 🙂 x

The bear x

Day 107 have good weekend all x

The bear x

Here is for 108 ☺

Keep on keeping on dear soldier! Foot in front of another

Sandra x

Keep going bear, the future is brighter and saner, where gambling has no part in it.

Well done on. an amazing 108 days.

Suzanne xxx

Thank you Suzanne and Sandra 110 days today sometimes in life you realise what the hell did I do for all those years gambling sitting in a betting shop all day on my day off I took the little things that mean so much for granted I clouded life and made blue skies not possible the clouds do take some shifting and they aren't removed yet, I wake every day with bad anxiety something I would have used gambling to make me feel better I can't anymore so have to battle through looking in the mirror is hard but possible because I don't look in the mirror alone today I have my beautiful son and fiancГ© standing behind me. Have good day everyone x

The bear x

Hi bear,

WOW!! You just made me cry and for that i thank you!!!

You don't express your feelings a lot but when you do, you hit the nail on the head every time...i thank you for this also ☺

Keep in keeping on and work recovery one day at a time

S x

Thanks Sandra hope your well day 111 today lets just keep battling away treasures await us as reward x

The bear x

Soo pleased you are getting stronger and stronger, bear,

When you look in that mirror now, think of you now, and not the past, and give a big smile to yourself, because you are worth it,

Keep strong and keep smiling.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne your continued support is really appreciated 🙂 day 113 gym done just looking after my little boy dinner tonight to celebrate my girlfriends birthday no gambling in sight just tranquil waters have nice weekend everyone x

The bear x

Day116 happy bank holiday everyone 🙂 thanks for your post gt much appreciated 🙂 x

The bear x

Thanks for your post Bear x

116 days of winning, it's lovely to see you moving slowly but surely OAU.

You have a good bank holiday too, (even if it is raining lol)

Keep strong.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne day 118 anxiety everywhere being normal not easy for a recovering gambler everything causes anxiety nothing to wander back to to hide the feelings it's a scary place but I hope and know that it will get better have good day all x

The bear x

119 days 17 weeks 4months the bear is moving right way keep moving in right direction have good day all x

The bear x

Well done bear!
No looking back, you and your loved ones deserves all the best and you my friend are definitely on the right track of getting there 🙂

One step at a time - keep making the right choice

Sandra x

Thank you Sandra 🙂 day 120 wow massive turning point from me yesterday working out in the gym and realised where all my anxiety started from being bullied in secondary school for how I looked the reasons are immaterial but what I did to avoid it isn't, running back home after school shutting the world out realising my security all these years I was embarrassed and just kept running back home also a bookies my own little safe place that kept me away the avoidance system worked back then it doesn't need to now I'm not 12 anymore gambling gave me a invisible cloak and it worked then I yesterday through that cloak away yeah it was bit dusty after 120 days but was still in the wardrobe peeling back the onion is painful but understanding things is amazing can't say the anxiety will disappear but I understand why it's there now the big wide world awaits. Keep believing all we can all get to where we want x

The bear x